I'm doing 42 things
It’s officially been 3 three months and seventeen days since the last time i had sex. I wish the last time had actually been more memorable, but it was more like a routine, one of the million times we’d clashed together post-break up. The worst thing is to love somebody and have them love you back, but fuck up so constantly that whatever you could have together would just destroy each other. So the sex begins as something you do to keep you from being alone, keeps you from hating each other because its all you have left. I decided to stop completely.. seeing him, and having sex and it was the best decision i’ve made in a long time. My head is more clear and now i can make decisions about the people i want in my life more clear and honestly. I know now that i wont be a rebound or let anybody else be my rebound, and im going to wait until i find somebody I don’t want to destroy, and one that i know won’t destroy me. This goal… is very worth it.
anb2n5's Life List
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1. graduate from college
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2. surprise the world
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3. Start My Own Charity
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4. Pay it Forward
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5. get over being cheated on
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6. visit germany
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7. start dating again
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8. fall in love again
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9. stop procrastinating
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10. see the northern lights
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11. lose weight and look hot
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12. unleash my inner lustmonkey
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13. kiss like they kiss in the Notebook.
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14. get a dog
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15. watch the AFI Top 100 American movies
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16. learn to play guitar like a pro
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17. Watch Every Episode of "Weeds"
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18. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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19. make my amends
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20. learn to identify the constellations
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21. do something everyday that scares me
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22. knit a sweater
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23. Save money
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24. Quit Smoking
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25. learn sign language
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26. visit all 50 states
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27. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
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28. make a difference
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29. Start my own business
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30. go on a cruise
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31. bungee jump
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32. Send a message in a bottle
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33. dye my hair
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34. accept the things I cannot change, have courage to change the things I can and have the wisdom to know the difference
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35. go to the Grand Canyon
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36. take a self defense class
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37. make more friends
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38. learn to cook like a chef
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39. become one of those people who always knows a good place to go
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40. start a photo journal - take at least a photo a day to represent my life
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41. kiss someone on the kiss camera at a baseball game
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42. Abstain from Sex for An Entire Year
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I finally kissed him… I dont know what’s going to happen.. I dont even know what i want to happen. But.. I kissed him, I smiled… and I still smile thinking about it.
It has been 6 days since I looked at his profile.. or even talked to him. I sent him a holiday greeting card, but I do not think he checked it. All is well, I still miss everything that he once was, and I am sad that we ended on such horrible terms. I know that he can be a better person, and hopefully he can become that person. He seems happy with his new love interest, and I am happy for him and can finally move on.. without having any contact! Changed my number, my email, and blocked him on my facebook,... and I’m still okay!!! Definitely worth doing if you need to get over an ex!
