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I organize my life, set myself time for each activity, know exactly what I have to do.

However, I JUST CAN’T FOLLOW MY PLANS! I hate having to work, so I start procrastinating and lose concentration. At the end of the day I accomplish little and I feel frustrated and worried about the impending deadline. I’ve tried motivation, summoning up willpower (telling myself it’s for the good of my future), banning myself from the internet and doing other things in the meantime…but they don’t seem to work very well. I know I need to do the work, I want myself to do it, but I just can’t actually DO it! Because of procrastination, I suffer from lack of sleep. I hate it, and I’m desperate, but I still don’t have enough willpower to do anything about it.

Anyone have any good solutions to my problem? 0__0
I guess I’ll just try again and again and find new ways of thinking/doing things to obtain enough strength to stop procrastination, until I succeed.

I am the least time-efficient person I know…

I just hate having to work, even if I actually like the topic. So, I start procrastinating and lose concentration on my tasks. My mind starts thinking about random things I saw, I experienced, other people said, and stories I make up on the spot, etc.

At the end of the day I accomplish little, sometimes being really slow and spending 3 hours on a simple exercise which others might spend only 45 minutes on. Often, I just can’t start moving and /doing/ the stuff. It is immensely frustrating. I’ve tried getting motivated, banning myself from the internet, alternating between different types of work…but they don’t seem to help very much.

Anyone know what I should do? If I keep going on like this, I will collapse from sleeping too little and too late (doing my work at the last minute) and I will get really bad eyesight from staring at the computer screen for too long (trying to do the work). I will also get worse grades in school (from rushed work and less revision time). And of course, my emotional well-being will be/is already strongly affected—anger at myself for being inefficient, constant worrying about my untouched work which I need to do but just CAN’T…
O__O

I used to be really good at creative writing…but due to schoolwork become challenging and time-consuming, I dropped this activity. Now I am probably out of practice =_=

Once I have free time again, probably in June next year, I will start writing and putting hard work into it. I have however been thinking up many interesting stories over these past few years—it is a fun activity to do and has preserved my creativity and imagination. So I will have plenty of content to write about when I have time. ^_

Ever since I learned to read at a very young age it has become my dream to write a good novel, and I will make sure this dream actually comes true.