andruchina

After getting my heart broken a bunch of times, I’ve become more and more numb to affection. I’m going out with a great guy now but somehow I can’t give him all of me…there’s always a cynical side of me that sabotages the beautiful moments and that expects certain things and, at the same time, knows these things won’t ever happen. That stinks, because I know he’s making a big effort to keep the relationship going and that he means the things he says..but I just can’t get myself to commit as much as he does emotionally. I honestly think I’ve lost the ability to fall in love. I care about him, I fancy him, I like him…but there’s no butterflies anymore.

Maybe I’m selfish but I want to change and give him the love he deserves.