Angel

So I’m thinking I’ve fallen into a slump again. Time to recap my accomplishments

‘09
March= Found an amazing apt./Found a good home for Lacey
April= Mall of America work assignment/Met Kenny(CL Friend)+Anime convention fail
May= Brittany Ann moves in/Pops visited
June= Bonnaroo w/Carmie! + Hang out w/Shoki+ Found an awesome flatmate + Hiked the Umpqua Dunes
July=...

....so I’ve been falling behind on some of my goals but I see now at least that I’m still making progress of some sort which makes me feel better. This list also omits the its and bits of mini trips and travels to the falls and the coast which have been here and there and uber refreshing.

Why am I failing so miserably at this? I go nuts when I find myself trekking up the side of a hill or wetting my feet in a puddle so why aren’t I wallowing the beauty of life’s everyday simplicities?....hmmm…everyday is quite a committed commitment which is especially bad for those with commitment issues (ie Me)...lets whittle this down to per week and see how that goes.

Okay, I need a progress check. Hmmm…when did I start this goal? Probably since I’ve began posting on this site. When was that? I’ll have to check after this but for now on with the assessment:

‘09
Feb= Pass Test in Memphis, TN
Jan= Visit Nashville/Michigan…find love for Portland

‘08
Dec= Find my <3/Read 9 books/donated blood 5 times
Nov= Trek the outdoors w/Berto
Oct= Step afuera de comfort zones/Give online connection sites a try
Sep= Cross country roadtrip/Move to Portland, OR/Get a Promotion
Aug= Live in a tent/Go home 4 a month/Leave <3 n Nashville
Jul= Work assignment(2 store closings in) in Ft. Lauderdale
Jun= Take a solitary road trip/Bonaroo/Get Married
May= Work assignment in LA/accepted relocation promotion
Apr= Completed Foto Class/Enroll in Literature Class
Mar= Work Assignment in Chicago
Feb= Start Ballroom Dance Lessons
Jan= Live life/Make a “mistake”/Begin Foto classes

07
Dec= Get a Camera
Nov= Make a Thanksgiving feast from scratch/Buy a new car
Oct= Road trip to Mi w/Shoki
Sep= Play house with Shoki
Aug= Fall in lust/Find myself/Survive car explosion
Jul= Kids come to visit me & Nashville for a month!
Jun= Fall in <3
May= Go to LA/Make a “mistake”/Reconnect w/old friends
Apr= Go to Tampa for first time (work)
Mar= Survive Linda Marie’s passing on my own
Feb= Buy a new car/Go to LA for the 1st time(work)
Jan= Visit back home for the first time/Break up w/a like(not a <3)

06
Dec= Hang in there!/Survive holidays/have wisdom teeth removed
Nov= Get promoted/Move to Nashville
Oct= Find a direction for life
Sep= Dabble in college courses…lit, psych, anthro, religion
Aug= try for Tampa relocation
Jul= party
Jun= party
May= party
Apr= party
Mar= work
Feb= work
Jan= work

Wow! Glad I went so far back. It’s really eye opening to see the drastic changes I’ve made in my life since I decided to move out of Michigan. It’s super encouraging! I had a good life in back home but around the year of ‘05 I kind of fell into a rut…no progress or direction…I was burned out after all the drama and confusion of highschool & religious indoctrination & mental battles w/my mummy dearest…Since the move I’ve made it a point to try to avoid that same rut ever again. Since then at times I’ve felt down, lonely, sad and clueless but I’ve always made it a point to do at least one thing that would make my life feel absolutely fabulous and non-mundane. I need to try to refocus this goal to “per week”. That’s not to say that I only do one thing a month but if I focus on it in the “per week” terms I’m more apt to be able to fluidly recollect. Why not? The stores are settled. It looks like I’m not going anywhere for at least a little while (6 months to a year). I’m glad I hopped on here to update my list! Ahhhhhhh…rekindled flames ;)