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i really want to knee someone in the groin! no one in particular… actually not true! i want to knee bitch boy, uggo, and other dicks!

the year came and went and guess what? it was shit!

I need to gain weight! I weigh as much as a 5th grade girl. My parents think I have some sort of eating disorder. It sucks royalty! I love food! WTF?

Vogue is an amazing magazine; I sometimes wish I could live in New York and have my career. It would be an exciting life, meeting new people and deciding the in and out of fashion. Fashion is the only thing I feel passionate about. I’m not interested in sports or most things associated with guys my age. I’m odd and there’s nothing wrong with that. Perusing a career in fashion could be an exciting lifestyle.

I hate when people get to me whispers and murmurs, giggles and chuckles. overwhelming

I’ve traveled so much, but I’ve never been to the snow. I’ve always wanted to visit even though I hate the cold.
The things I must do in the snow…
*build a snowman
*ski
*go in an innertube
*sled
*go on a horse ride
*snowball fight

Why is it so difficult? I try I really do. Why is it that my instinct is to say something mean and hurtful? Why do I create a shell of wrath around me? Why don’t I let people like me and get close to me? Is it maybe that I don’t want to disappoint them, and if so what am I hiding.
I try to be good person. I do community service, I give to my friends and family, but yet I’m disliked and hated by some. I know I’m good at heart but why do I come out as a cold nasty person?
Sometimes I’m even mean to my friends, which I think pushes them away. Sometimes I can feel people getting tired of me, putting others in front of me when they’re supposed to be my best friends.
I’m sick of it all.