A slow but continuing process; for Christmas I had more tattoo work done, and for the New Year I had my hair cut to the length I’ve decided I prefer and that really feels like me.
Turning 30 in a few days, and I’ve put the wheels in motion toward making my 30’s a much better time than my 20’s have been, and toward becoming the person I want to be:
- Quitting my dead-end job that’s offered no advancement or growth
- Revamping my apartment over the next month from place I simply eat and sleep at into a home and workspace extraordinaire!
- Getting myself back on track with my nutrition and fitness plan
- finally taking care of ME and putting ME first instead of always last
- cutting out the people in my life or reducing my time with the ones that are negative
- trying to spend more time with people in my life that are positive forces
I’m putting this into motion; leaving my job I hate is going to open up a lot of time and I’ll finally have energy to do the things I’ve had to put on hold for the last five years!
I’ve decided to finally leave the job I don’t love; the stress, the headache and the toxic environment are no longer things I can handle being around, and the pay no longer is worth putting up with any of it.
I’m turning in my two weeks tomorrow; this isn’t going to be pretty, and my boss there might fire me on the spot, but I’ve reach the point where I just don’t even care. It’s not worth my time or my energy anymore.
I’m getting better hours and better pay at my second job, and I’m respected more there, which makes a huge difference.
In the last month and a half I’ve seen:
- Avengers
- Snow White & The Huntsman
- Rock of Ages (twice)
For me, that’s quite a lot of movie going, since my average of seeing movies in the theater is usually one or two a year.
I’ve found that, abstaining from alcohol, I actually have no desire to drink it. It’s like a phase in my life from that I’ve passed through and now on the flip side, all desire to do it is gone. Having no desire for it anymore, I’m considering this goal accomplished.
Been pretty consistent with this! I’ve made it to the gym every other day on average so far since I got my membership, which is pretty awesome. Feeling great too. Last night one of my friends came with me on a Guest Pass and we worked out for over an hour, then spent some time relaxing in the sauna. Great workout, relaxing at the end, and good company. Woo!
I went and bought myself a gym membership.
Yes, I work at a gym, but I’ve come to realize that as I spent so much time at work, I don’t feel inclined to be there when it’s not work hours.
Also, I found I’m more comfortable in a co-ed gym environment than I am in a women’s only one; I find it more motivational for some reason to be around both men and women, and I find it more stressful to be in a women’s only environment, I think partially because I’m queer and I’ve heard some unkind things said before about queer women ‘cruising’ women’s only gyms. Which isn’t the case for me, but the whole stereotype about it makes me uncomfortable.
Also, working out at a gym I don’t work at means that I can exercise in peace. No one will come up to me, pull my headphones out of my ears, and demand I assist them with something because I don’t work at this place. At the gym I work at, that’s an issue when I’m not on shift – people assume if I am there, I am working and there to assist them at all times, even if I’m there and not on shift. That makes it difficult to get the exercise in that I want and makes for stressful situations when I try to kindly explain that I’m there off-shift and they get offended that I’m telling them they need to ask another staff member for help.
That all said – I love the gym I’m working out at now. There’s a lot of equipment, I like the atmosphere, most of the people are pleasant, and best of all I’m actually GOING and working out rather than putting it off. Paying for a membership certainly is motivating in that way, because if I’m not using it I’m wasting money.
IN THEATERS
- Sherlock Holmes: A Game Of Shadows
MOVIES ON DVD: FIRST TIME WATCH
- He Was A Quiet Man
- MILK
- Angels In America
MOVIES ON DVD: RE-WATCHED
- Interview With The Vampire
- Braveheart
I’m finding it hard to be passionate about much of anything right now.
I’m sad. I’m hurt. I’m heartsore.
I try to be positive, I try to do things that will take the focus off the sad feelings, but at the end of the day, I just feel sad again.
I’ve finally begun the journey of writing something novel-length. I’m a bit nervous, very excited, and I have the good fortune of having found an excellent proof-reader.
One chapter down, who knows how many more to go, and a notebook full of ideas, plot points, character study, and more…
... tracked my nutrition for today and stayed within my calorie guidelines, pre-planned most of my meals and snacks for tomorrow, and started pre-planning for Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday for what meals I know I have things for.
This weekend is going to be a little tricky; headed out of town with the theater group for performances out of town, and I know at least some of the dinners will be dining out and perhaps a lunch or two. I’m aiming at having salads as much as possible during those, avoiding desserts and drinks, and also pre-packing is going to help.
I’m not the only one in the group trying to watch what I eat, so I’m hoping that will help to some degree too. Even if it doesn’t, I have a goal, dammit. I’m sticking to it!
I’m so tired of not accomplishing things; 2012 is the year of getting things DONE!
I’m taking a new approach to getting my site done; more focus on content first, then pretty details can come later.
The holidays were not entirely good to me; I avoided cookies, candies, and a lot of the big holiday meals, but I didn’t exercise like I should have and still ended up gaining a couple pounds. That and I was going through emotional upheaval for the span between Thanksgiving and Christmas, so that didn’t help.
I’ve got a new goal however, so that’s going to help a lot with getting back on track. I have a major event happening in May, and I want to be in better shape for it so… we shall see how much I can buckle down and get into the swing on things between now and then!
I’m not an alcoholic; I drink when I’m in social situations like karaoke night at the bar and that happens maybe once or twice at the most a month, and often times even less than that.
My last two times drinking I lost control too much and drank far more than I should have.
I can tell I like how I feel when I’m drunk (uninhibited, more impulsive) and I also become unpredictable, and the fact is that pretty much scares the crap out of me.
I don’t WANT to have a drinking problem so I want to cut the very likely potential that it could happen out of my life before it becomes a serious issue.
Here’s to making 2012 a sober year.
