So I got perspective on my training issue I was dealing with, talked with a friend and colleague about it (thank God for the amazing people in my life that always online when I need them most!) and wrote an email clarifying my perspective. So now it is off my shoulders and I can let myself of the hook! I make mistakes, I am sometimes disorganised and late but never dishonest or non appreciative for other people’s efforts so I should not feel like the bad guy anymore! Another lesson learnt! Feel much better now since I am now not stuck in self blaming and the past anymore and can focus on the future again! Another beautiful day can start! A day in which my dad and millions of other cancer patients are on their way to recovery and healing! And I will be there every step of the way! Too bad I cannot do it for everyone…
so I will call it a day for today and get up really early tomorow to still some left over things of the list of today. I really cannot do anything when I am feeling like this… :-( I really need to learn that I cannot change the past and that the only thing I can do is learn from it and MOVE ON! Seems like I am focusing on small things and opinions of people that I probably will never see again to forget about the real issue bugging me: my dad and his upcoming fight with cancer! I better call it what it is: a life changing event that has a major effect on me and how I see the world! I was assuming so far he would be here for the rest of my days and suddenly that belief is being shaken up severely… But I still need him so much! So he better be OK! STOP IT! This is no use! Go to bed and start over again tomorrow!
I feel like crap because I slept far to little all week (I was up till 4 or 5 am almost very evening this week) and my house looks like a paper bomb exploded in it. This mess was ok last night to get things moving fast but now it’s annoying. So first I need to wake up properly and then get in there… I would love to take today off but I cannot because I have to give workshops tomorrow and I still need to prepare them. But hey, that is the downside of being a businesswoman with crappy organisation and timing! So less complaining, more working! Perseverance and organisation will get me there!
I need to think about it now and set it up in the coming week and a half so I am ready to be there for about 2 weeks:
- laptop
- printer – check this weekend and to get a cartridge next week
- acces to internet – check this weekend!
- online banking thingy
- project folder with checklists, materials and deadlines
- basic office stuff: pens, post-its, paper (normal and for the printer), ...
- study books
- mobile phone
For now I think that is it!
I should also set up my ‘in training mobile office’ so it is always ready to go but I will do that later, when I have tested this one. But they are very similar, it seems…
Ok, that’s it for now!
and I did dig in right away so all chores of the previous days are done, except for the washing, but the machine will take care of that. Making the shedule was actually easy, now I just need to stick with it and spend no more then 1,5 hours a day on it. Thi one might be easy after all… Would be nice for a change!
of doing what when so everything gets done almost automatically instead of having cleaning, bill and washing days out of my normal work shedule. Organisation is the key to have more time to do other stuff, more important then washing dishes or clothes.
so things are moving somewhere! The things I need to do is keep the faith and WORK HARD! If only to do list could get done while sleeping, but while waiting for a cavalary of little dwarfs and nymphes to do it for me, I will just dig in and do it myself!
is to get new pictures for it. I really hate to have my picture taken, so will have to force myself to do it but I need to! It’s on my very very long to do list for the coming week and a half.
I was in my former office today and it made me realise that letting the past go and forgive people really is the best way forward for me. Mistakes were made on both sides, but in the end everyone ended up happier and in my case also healthier so the decision to leave was definitely the right one. One chapter closed, a new one of possible cooperation can open and will hopefully be more productive than the old one…
Beside that I have one more subscriber today! That is just great! Welcome to my adventures!
otherwise I cannot go to NY when I reach my year goal! So need to do it in the coming week and a half so I am ready for my succes! Showing my gratitude to the universe already!
and I will finish the first (draft) version by the weekend so I can develop it gradually further during the coming weeks. It is something I can do while being with my dad at home, so that’s the plan, now I only need to stick to it…
so will postpone it for later when I am ready to focus on love and relationships etc. But first things first and this is not a priority!
so I will develop them together! The website will have to be a reflection of it all but since I cannot wait any longer to get it up and running I will already start with some elements and add the rest gradually when they are ready to be announced to the world. That way I am not running before I can walk…
containing 6 local activity plans and 7 international project activities. If I can develop all those to a satisfying level I have a diverse and growing business strategy. It looks good! Now I only need to work on all these elements and get them on their way. Some of them have of course already started but they can be certainly improved by the integration in the bigger strategy and direction of Trainstorm. To be continued! Nice goal!
turns out to be a later this week list! So I worked hard today (I am so happy with that!) but I still have a long way to go! But this happens when you are unable to focus for several weeks! My own fault, so I will have to pay the price and catch up… But I like the ‘I am focused’ mood very much so no complaints! This is a great goal!
when I have completeld my list and have a clear action plan for all my ideas with deadlines and check lists in my folder and on the wall! So hopefully I will be fully focused very soon!
- go to the bank to get stamp for funding application and make a nice file of it and a copy for me – done
- register at Open University
- deal with bills and invoices – it took for ever, but it is DONE
- develop website – steps set, still a long way to go
- deal with left over paper mail – DONE
- read at least 100 mails – more then DONE
- make a plan for the coming weeks with ideas and clear deadlines
- make checklists and a visual overview fo things still to do – half way there
Do not forget:
- prep of Euromed training
- training cycle for AEGEE
- Kleur Bekennen
Things that need to be done this week:
- website
- material development for Tool fair and Kleur Bekennen
I have the life and liberty I love so much, I have great ideas that will be steps forward on my road to success and improving the world and I have great family and friends I can really count on and that make me amazingly happy! I have had ups and downs during my years of growing up but now at 31 I really have to admit my parents are just the best! I did and do not make their lifes easy but they are there every step of the way, so it is very normal I will return the favour any day of the week… Go mam and dad!
A big hug to everyone who needs one from this happy shiny woman!
if I become a trainer in the Dutch pool of trainers! I applied yesterday and I am truely grateful for getting in! I can do this so I will!
I am getting back into the hang of ‘working on my success’ but still a long way to go! Luckily for me all great journeys start with one step! and that one step is set, so the rest will follow…