I had the tumour taken out of my foot, but once he was in, the surgeon found that some muscle and some of the joint had to go too, so now I am up to my knee in very heavy plaster and navigating the world using crutches and wheelchair and a few hops in between. I’ve been a bit depressed and sad on and off since I got home from hospital, hating the loss of my independence and woozy and muddled from the painkillers. But I think it will get a little bit easier every day.
annache's Life List
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1. finish my PhD
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2. build a career by seeking out brilliant opportunities and generally being a bit more proactive
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3. make at least one thing a week and post a photo of it
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4. make my garden beautiful
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5. spend quality time every day with my cat
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6. see where love takes me
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7. phone/see/email/write to a friend or family member every single day
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8. neither have nor cheer a weight loss goal
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9. develop a completely ethical and excitingly innovative get-rich-quick scheme
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10. find good strategies for dealing with panic attacks
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11. Find some slightly lucrative outlet for my crafty (as in craft-related) urges
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12. automatically think of the 1900s when someone says '20th century' and the 1800s when someone says '19th century' etc instead of having to think about it every time
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13. put aside some time every Sunday to plan my week, and every morning to plan my day
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14. create an exciting, inspiring, buzzing sunday school program
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15. begin my psychological preparation for turning 32 nice and early
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16. rebuild my savings
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17. collect beautiful images of writers to inspire my work
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18. unearth my inner girl
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19. deal with this peacefully and beautifully
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20. own a light box
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21. develop some emotional resilience
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22. decide whether "The Secret" is brilliant or hogwash
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23. become unbelievably organised
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24. be more honest
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My favourite six letters in the whole of the english language are B-E-N-I-G…and N again :) !!! The lump on my foot is a benign tumour!! Because it’s quite big and getting bigger I’m having both it and the muscle it’s latched onto removed anyway, but they can take my whole leg for all I care. All I want is a few more years on this beautiful planet, and I have them!
This has been one of the most intense experiences of my life (which shows really what an incredibly blessed life I have had) and I am determined to learn from it every lesson it offers. There have been so many!
Apart from the two I mentioned in my last entry (a new capacity for empathy that I had previously BADLY lacked, and a new appreciation for people in my life I never knew cared so much) I have also had an opportunity to rapidly assess which of my goals and relationships are the really important ones in my life. I have also, without any effort to do so, found my criticisms of my body wholly replaced with an overwhelming gratitude for 31 years of such faithful service. I’m going to give it so much more love and care from now on.
Thank you a million times to those who have offered prayers and kind thoughts. They make all the difference in the world :)
