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I felt so burned out this week. I got 2 major rows with the 2 people I love – my husband and my mom. All because of uncontrolled anger. I feel sad. I don’t want to be angry anymore. Why can’t I just let them do their thing, and I wouldn’t mind? I tried surfing the net on free anger management. The list is long for expensive tuition, but none that’s free. Or I haven’t just discovered the freebies yet. But logically, I think this is more on spiritual. When one is spiritually okay, he should be able to keep reign on his anger better than the other who doesn’t even to go church!

This goal is not a shot-deal. I can’t check it out and say, I am now a good mom. Until my very last breath, I still need to strive to be a good mom. But I am so proud of myself lately. I know I have been patient and kind to my daughter. I love her very much, and the love is showing in my actions as well. Infact, I’ve been quite busy in my babysitting that it took me a long time to visit this site.

When I wrote this thing to do, I was very firm that I wanted to do it. It stemmed from reading a book about building confidence in public speaking. It says that our fear of public speaking roots from our fear of rejection. And beacuse of that fear, we tend to please everyone. I am not sure if that’s my case. However, I felt that I wanted to please people more and more, that’s why I decided to stop it once and for all. But lately, I seemed to be forgetting this resolution. It’s time to exet more effort on this.