annie5

When I go out to parties I usually drink too much and become very chatty and possible a little annoying. I also become abit of a show off!! The next day I become very depressed and paranoid that everyone I chatted to I annoyed!! I then worry about seeing them again and what they might be saying about me behind my back. Don’t get me wrong my friends I do have some friends but I want to talk to everyone when I’m drunk. As a result loads of people recognise me. I know I should only care about the thoughts of my friends but I hate being talked about.

I don’t drink everyday I am just a huge weekend binge drinker. I need to learn how to go out and enjoy myself without getting out of my head on alcohol. I usually have a few drinks to boost my confidence, which it does, and then I continue until I fall over. I then change into a very annoying person who wants to chat to everyone. I become very opinionated and on ocassion say something i regret later. Sometimes I lose half the night. More often than not, I wake up with a hangover and a deep depression which I can’t handle. I then get paranoid about everyone and so the next time I go out I have a few drinks to cope with my paranoia and so the cycle continues…..