Picked up the guitar today and played for about 2 hours straight. Then later I started messing about on it and even wrote a few riffs. On the way I guess =)
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How I did it: I took the rest of the money in my loan out again, added what I had saved up and then started looking. Had to decide between a second-hand old car, or a new smaller car. Went for the new one. Got myself a brand new black Hyundai Getz. Nice choice IMO =) Read how I did it…
How I did it: I applied for a management position @ work and they offered me one. Not the one I applied for but a better one =)When they offered me the job I was a bit anxious. Actually, thats an understatement. I was nervous as hell, to the point where I was considering resigning from the position before starting it. My partner helped me out heaps and now I'm on my way to a nicely paid career with Woolies =) Read how I did it…
How I did it: I just stopped drinking coke. I still let myself enjoy it when I go out and that sorta thing but other than that, no purchase = no drinking! Got massive headaches for a while and caffiene withdrawals but yeah, go there in the end. Read how I did it…
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Well… I picked up my guitar and a few things have come out. Nothing amazing, but its a start. A few riffs that fit together nicely. No lyrics at all though. Can’t get anything there =/
Well, it turns out that giving her the space of not talking was a bad idea… She reacted badly to that and took it very wrongly. Less than 24 hours later we had disagreed about it, then agreed to not do it lol.
Things are going well-ish.
She got back to Adelaide today and I went and saw her briefly. It was awkward a bit, but I must admit it was a lot easier than I had expected it to be. Seeing her was really good… I’ve missed her heaps. Even if she is no longer my partner, and I would do almost anything to change it, I am glad to have such a good friend, and being around her again made me feel good.
Beyond that, I’m coasting along nicely. I’m not going to pretend like any of the issues are fixed… that takes time. A lot of time… but I am doing things to aid it – I’ve taken up level design again (a renewed hobby), I’m making efforts at work to put myself in a better situation as far as my job goes, I’m being more careful with my money, I’m making efforts to see friends more, I’m stepping outside of my comfort zone in an effort to increase my confidence, etc.
Like I said, it will take a long time, but already I feel a lot better about myself… I’m starting to get some self-respect and self-esteem. I’m starting to like me. In some ways, I’ve never been more upset, but in others I’ve never been happier. It still varies a lot, and it will for ages, but I’m confident I’ve made some steps int he right direction. I’m really proud of myself =)

