at the park today with my nephew, another kid that we just met named Noah and his 2 yr old sister Hannah and my daughters. We had just finished riding bikes and the older boys decided to play a game of basketball. She was sitting there patiently watching her dad play for quite a while- especially for someone her age. She finally got bored and started crying. So I told her dad that we were going to play on the playground and asked if she could go too. He said he didn’t think she would. I held out my hand and told her that we were going to go play and asked if she wanted to go. She grabbed my hand and off we were. Later I asked F if her dad was surprised that she went with me and he said, “Yes, he was shocked that she went”. Of course that made me feel good that she immediately felt safe with me, that or she was just desperate to do something else…lol. Either way I was happy. I had so much fun playing with them all, oh, and also this other little girl showed up too, while her mom waited in the car. I haven’t played like that in so long. I miss being around little kids so much – My heart is still beaming :)
It’s time to be happy again. It’s not that I am miserable…I’m just not as happy as I deserve to be. I’m not where I want to be, and I know what happy potential level I am capable of.
Time to remain focused and not let my sister, or anyone else for that matter, come between what I need to do.
If you don’t know where you are going, you will probably end up somewhere else.
We took them off last Friday. Went to the park and gave it a whirl-
After running around with him and the bike for what felt like miles, starting out in the grass, then the sidewalk. I finally got on it and realized that his bike is almost impossible to peddle. F says it’s a ‘trick’ bike…great! By the time we figured this out he was ready to play on the playground, then baseball. After all the other kids left we
played a game of basketball. It’s so cool watching him finally get out with kids his age, and actually get sweaty.
J has a bike that is too small for him. Next time we go my nephew can ride that one and hopefully he will be off on his own soon- feeling the wind in his hair and feeling his first taste of freedom.
I just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers – Sending you positive energy, healing, love and a biggo hug :)
for this month.
So thankful to have this goal here to remind me.
to re-open this. It’s just sitting there on my wall, waiting for the shutters and a few last details…So what if it’s not perfect – at least I’ll know that I tried.
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Where are you, C?
P.S.
I sure hope B is ok after falling off the roof…Ouch!...
Poor both of you!
C, I was trying to find you a cute cake with animals, or some sort of artsy fartsy cake and when I came across this one I just couldn’t resist…lol
I hope you have a super wonderful day, week, month and year ahead. You deserve it all, dear. I loved you the second I saw you on neighborhood watch that day…lol
I don’t think I’ve ever subscribed to anyone from defending them there before, but life is full of funny and cool surprises like that.
I don’t know about you, but I was ready to be 20-10 when the time came. It means learning to be able to “say what is on your mind” just a little easier and to also “stop seeking approval from others”, which I believe comes with age and/or experience.
And just so you know I think you are doing extremely well on both of those. You are most definitely gracefully celebrating this day with style, wisdom and
the biggest heart- thank you for being such a wonderful friend.
You are the kind of girl that other girls hold dear to their heart when they find you, because we have had those other kind of friends and know what a treasure you really are- thanks for being that girl!
-T
(A.K.A. Your H.B.S.)
with my girls and nephew. We went to my mom’s house, aka Grammy’s.
Took her a nice variety of flowers to plant at her house. She was so happy that we were all there that she got a bit teary-eyed when we all walked in. She’s been through so much lately and has been very down dealing with my sister, so I know seeing my nephew was something that she really needed today. Being away from him so much lately, when she has been his primary caregiver for so long now…
The kids, my mom and step-dad all got out there together found a great spot at the front of the house. I pulled a bench from the side of the house that they weren’t using and added it to our decor. It all turned out quite pretty, and most importantly “got her out of her funk”, which is what my step-dad said, so that made my Mother’s Day extra special.
I’ll have to take him to stay with her on her next weekend off. I know she needs more than a couple of hours with him. I was just happy that her mood was lifted and she genuinely seemed happy when it was time for us to leave. :)
I will be there from June 1st- June 8th. My girls will be at camp, so I might actually get to go and not have to be running around like we did last time. I drove there with them once and we had to stop in L.A. It was constant on the go- heading downtown almost everyday. I just want to wander around the local area and enjoy being near the ocean, maybe read a book and catch a comedy act and a few drinks. Nothing major just really need to be at peace and hang out with my dear friend.
I’ll be getting a paid vacation in July, so I can take them there then and will be well rested to run around San Francisco at that time. :)
and just get too caught up and forget to go. The people are great and from all and any religion. I love that part about it there. The ‘preacher’ guy is super cool and just hearing him talk gives me a lift that I really feel like I need right now…plus I am going to stay in this town until my kids graduate so I need to make the most of it- hopefully I will meet some people that are more like me. Oh! and they have yoga classes, so that’s an extra bonus too ;)
I went to pick up some t-shirts that were made for our co. this morning. I noticed this awesome motorcycle out front, walked in and asked the guy helping me who’s bike that is. He said it was his. We talked for awhile and had a funny back and forth banter going on. He asked if I had ever ridden on the back before…lol.. I smiled and showed him my war motorcycle burns on my right leg. I explained that was from my younger days. He said if I ever wanted to go riding to let him know…hmmm?
Pretty soon when everything calms down I will follow my heart, get my own place and be free again. I just might be getting in touch with him when I get there.
I found these yesterday on a made c.d. from my other sister. She made me several Dave Matthews c.d’s about 5 yrs ago for Christmas. I thought that cd was one that I already had, and never listened all the way through it. Yesterday I popped it in and was running around letting it play. At the end of several Dave Matthews songs these songs started playing…so weird how things happen sometimes. These are some of the songs that all three of us listened to while growing up. We used to make up dances to these, and had parties using our strobe light…:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AJ2L4iPvdIk&feature=related
We Are Family
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p02DgHeGdyI&feature=related
Brand New Key
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9uLbTkqaxc
Lady Marmalade
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EoXvDleWJ5U
Got To Be Real
The last couple of days have been incredibly draining. We all came to the agreement that my nephew should be here with me, despite what my sister wanted. Yesterday I met our family friend to pick him up, and he and I spent the day together getting him situated. We went and got him some new undies ;), socks and jeans, and a closet organizer. When I got him I had a car load of stuff. We went through everything, including his clothes that he said he doesn’t wear half of-or they didn’t fit. I told him we would take them to one of the local thrift shops and sell them, and the money he makes will be his.
He, like any kid- loved that idea:)
I spoke to his teacher and she agreed that he should take the day off and she was not concerned about him making up his work. She told us to enjoy the day, maybe get some ice cream. I told my nephew that part of his homework was to get some ice cream. He thought that was funny and I at least got a grin out of him… so we headed to Baskin Robbins. Before walking in I told him he should feel very loved because I normally don’t step foot in that place. (The smell of sweets makes me want to hurl…lol)
I met his teacher this morning and she said she will make sure and “give him extra love”. I’m so thankful for her and her help with everything.
It actually took a couple of hours before he started acting like himself again after getting him. He seems happy now and even my sister finally came to her senses and was ok with him being with me. She knows deep in her heart that he is better off here with his family.
I’m going to take him this weekend to visit his sister and my mom. He and my mom are super close. She’s been helping take care of him in the same house since he was a baby. I’m so lucky to have her, and so is he.
I made a promise to my nephew one day that I would make sure that everything would be ok. I’m going to do my best to keep that promise.