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I like a boy… his name’s Kevin. He’s a recovering alcoholic (I know I know I”m a glutten for punishment) but he owns his own home, has a great car, great job, and is just trying to figure out how to be happy without substinance. Oh and he’s 24 (3 months younger than I am).

He likes me. He likes spending time with me, we text every day, and he’s called me beautiful and says I’m great. But he’s unhappy and he’s unsure why so he’s trying to live his life. There are some days where he doesn’t have much support so every day I text him an inspiring quote.

It was really cute, yesterday he texted me asking if he was going to get it, not realizing I had already sent it in the morning. He looks forward to them every day. Anyways. I’ve decided that I’m just going to keep doing this until he wakes up and realizes how amazing I am.

Except for the fact that he already thinks I’m amazing. He just ‘doesn’t want a relationship’. The funny thing is, at the same time, I don’t either. I mean, I do and I don’t. But I can’t give him much if we were to actually make it official. I just don’t have any time. I’m trying to find out who I am and what not. And I think that’s part of the reason why I like him so much is we’re both at the exact same state (But I’m not a recovering alcoholic)

Yesterday my own mother told me she’s going to attempt to get me fired from my job because I still have one of her sweaters.

Have you ever known anybody who has wanted to commit suicide? How have you responded to it?

When I was in high school a girl had told us she was going to kill herself, so we told the counsillor and she was on watch. She was mad at us but realized in the end that it was the best decision.

Now, I’m 24… My 13 year old little cousin has been cutting herself and I’ve just been informed that she wants to commit suicide. I’m not sure how to deal with this. I don’t know what to say to her to get her to open up to me. She doesn’t want to talk to her parents and there’s not anybody else in our family who’s close enough other than me. I know what it’s like to feel this hurt, I’ve wanted to hurt myself too but I never did it. I even told a few people that I was going to and it resulted in the cops coming and calming me down. But she’s so young. She has so much to look forward to. It was different when it was a friend because we just told on her. But when it’s family, how do we respond?