artgirl1973

i was diagnosed with anxiety/panic disorder about 6 years ago after my dog passed away. my doc put me on paxil which worked great. i finally built up a tolerance to it and weened off last summer. it was so liberating to feel a sense of control thru the meds and then to give the meds up. this past november i went thru a traumatic situation on my job in which my boss out of the blue decided to try to have me fired. no justification or warning, just an outright stab in the gut. i crumbled into an emotional heap. up til this point i was friends with my boss and co-workers and then an item to be tossed out with the trash. i could not rationalize why this happened and how to move on. one night i had a panic attack that lasted near 2 hours. heart pounding, hyperventalating, shaking, sweating…i thought i was going to die. my parents had to witness this. it took almost three months to get it under control and start a new medication and therapy. i’m still suffering attacks, once a week, sometimes 3/4 days in a row. it varies, no ryhme or reason to them. the attack itself wears me out and then the rescue meds knock me out. i’m afraid and so often feel alone. i’m glad to have found this group. your entries remind me that i am in fact not alone. i’ve had the same problem with driving and grocery stores. eating out at resturants is a big deal to. even the movie theater. nothing’s worse as when theattack comes and you can’t find a safe place to get thru it. i usually hide in the ladies room at work. i’m not sure what tomorrow holds but i have to get thru it somehow. i want my life back.