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He called me while I was away visiting my sister, and said that he wanted to be my boyfriend. And asked me if I’d be his girlfriend again, I said I wasn’t sure and that we’d talk about it later.

Well I agreed to go to dinner with him on Saturday night, and we had a great time, he looked fabulous and made me smile soo much my cheeks hurt. It seemed like the good ol times and I liked it that way.

On Sunday I agreed to come over and wake him up, and decided that I’d make him breakfast. So I did. And that was nice, then we ended up playing basketball together, going fishing, and went to dinner again. It seemed like him and I together…time goes by so freakin fast. It was fun though.

We eventually talked, and I told him that I missed him too. He then said, “be my girlfriend again then.” And I agreed to, but I made him pinky swear that he really wanted to be with me and work it out. I’m giving him the benefit of the doubt and I hope that it works out the way that I want it too.

Anyways, thanks to everybody on here that has supported me. I’ll come on here again and lend you my advice. Keep in touch! and all of you keep your head up, there is a light at the end of the tunnel! I promise

god bless you all

Ashley

He called last night…twice.

We just pretty much just argued, and I said I was done. That he was rude. And me exact word were…

“I have given you space, I have changed myself to be better for you and us (cause I really was a prude) anyways, I have put up with enough bullshit from you to last a life time. I have gone through hell waiting for you to get your “space” and now I’m tired of it. It would be different if you were actually nice when you call…but in the future I don’t want you to call unless you have something nice to say.”

And I waited for him to reply…but it sounded like he was watching the TV instead of listening to me.

And I said, “Did you just hear anything or said, or am I still wasting my breath?”

And he replied, “I garentee that I heard everything that you said. I have heard it like 10 Times now I get it.”

and I said, “yea you get it but you won’t change. I can’t be the only one to change, Your mean and hurtful. ANd i can’t keep going on like this!”

and he said, “Don’t worry, I’m running out of reasons to be mad at you.”

I don’t know what that means?? But his way of getting over me is to sit and make me sad, and be mean to me, so he knows that its affecting me. I’m tired of it. I have run out of my patience. There’s no excuse. I care about him very much but I deserve better than this! Seriously! anyways…thats where I’m at right now. I think I’m not going to answer his calls for a while.

any advice is appreciated.

Ashley

First loves are never replaceable…and I have come to terms with that. Maybe we’ll meet sometime down the road..but I doubt it. Life goes on, people grow up and realize different things about themselves. I have realized as such and you all should too!! It sucks, I know…and hurts soo bad, but there is another love out there for you somewhere. And everything from your first love with teach you how to be in your next relationship. Life goes on, and its only gonna make you strong its a fact! (thats a song) go out and have a great time! Embrace your blessing, and enjoy being alive! Life is short, you don’t want to miss the ride because your affraid to loose your riding partner! Even if you ride it by yourself, its better than not riding the ride of life at all! right? anyways, I’m just in a “mood” today it will probably change. But I hope not. I’m ready to be “me” again. And suprisingly it hasn’t even been 2 months yet. But I think it was “over” before it was really “over.”

If this made any sense I hope it was a great deal of help to some of your lonesome hearts! Yes you may love this person, but you must love yourself more.

Ash