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Omg. Wii Boxing. Never knew what a workout it becomes after you get to a certain skill level. Seriously. My arms hurt so much.

Which, ofc, means that I am going to be doing this all the flipping time now, now that I no longer have access to my school’s shiny free gym facilities.

Edited my CV and a rough covering letter yesterday, using the massive injection of free time that I’ve been granted with exams being over! Just need to find a job now – and that’s the hard part: even without being picky (seriously I have looked at most things) I have found zilch.

I even asked at my local Jollyes (part of the logic behind this was that, if they do employee discount then I can get discounted food for my dog – and also, it’s over the road from my Dad’s work so he could drop me off). They did have a job, but as it involved heavy lifting, I couldn’t have it with my medical condition.

Next stop: carvery about a mile down the road! Wish me luck!

I know I added this goal a little while ago, but it’s taken an odd experience to give me the kick up the backside needed to really start.

And, it’s going to sound so stupid.

Basically, I needed my eyebrows sorting for a ball that’s coming up this Friday, and I’d gone shopping for shoes to go with my dress. Anyway, my mum and I were in Debenham’s when my mum noticed an eyebrow bar, and asked if I wanted it doing.

I said “yes”, and my mum gave the instructions on how I wanted them doing. I didn’t realise that it was one of those places where they use thread for it, and the first one was like an electric shock – and, all subsequent for that matter.

Halfway through, I checked how they were being done – they seemed ok. So, I lay back for more pain. But, eventually, they were done, and I was near to tears. Then, I saw them, and they were about half their old thickness. I burst into tears.

Now, the link with Stoicism may not be obvious, but it is this: at several times, I had a chance to go with how I truly felt, and could have avoided my anguish through true judgement. I don’t know to what extent it was trust for my mother that influenced me here, but I don’t want to be weak about this and say that it’ll be easier when I’m at university. I want to start here, and I want to start now.