it is not the red house I love. But I think I can make it that way. There is a tree I love in the front yard though. The tree was definitely a selling point for me
I think about this often but I am afraid. It is not an easy process. I need to accept that part.
I am reading a book of short stories by Alice Munro. She is such a damn talented writer! Something to aspire to…
This goal was: Stop being overdrawn in my bank account. I really want to change my relationship with money all around. I am doing so well lately. I paid $100 extra on my car pmt yesterday. (I had paid off another bill and my daughter’s ortho payments don’t start until next month.) I also want to budget (yes I’ve made a budget) charitable giving. Even just a small amount each month – $15 to $20. I think it will be fun to get to decide where it will go to each month even if its the same charity more than once. This month I donated $20 to childrenofthenight.org
I went on the best hike last night! We hiked up above the city and watched the sun set then watched the full moon rise. (just like the song. Someone commented that the word moon is in more songs than any other…how many can you come up with?) I joined this women’s hiking group and this was the first I joined in on. I’m so glad it’s there I’ve learned that rather than trying to convince friends (or worse your kids) to do all these things you want to do, it’s much easier to join and all ready existing group. And there are many out there!
or 98 bazillion or something. 2 cats that aren’t fixed can produce this many cats! there are feral cats in my neighborhood. They’re harmless, do fine but constantly there are these new batches coming up. I caught a few and took them to the Humane Society but I think they ended up euthenizing them. It was a little morbid taking these kitties to their death, so I stopped. I could get them fixed and re-release them. I’ve heard having a feral female keeps other cats away. I’m doing some research to find the low cost spay and neuter in my area. I believe that helping sometimes means taking a look at what’s right under your nose.
I’d like to do this in the future but I wanted to delete this one for now so I could add another goal. (I am actively crocheting right now anyway.)
My daughter’s afghan is finished. Now I get to pick the next one. It’s 95 degrees today. I may wait until fall to start another.
I did some writing on a short story I had left dormant for awhile. I really like all the characters I create. I’m not sure my writing does them justice. I am going to keep writing though.
I vacuumed under the cushions today. wooo. oh, ya and under the computer desk. Gross.
Part of this woman I’m becoming is learing to compromise and really take a look at what is most important. I went to a training on refugees yesterday and learned about children who are forced to kill, families that lose family members in front of them, woman and girls being raped. I have been truly blessed and feel I can make some compromise on this newest chapter of my life.
But I also want to stay true to myself and what I’ve learned is important to me.
This will take some thought, some patience, some time, and trusting…
I only have a few more rows of my daughter’s afghan. I think I may make the next one for my aunt.
There is an interesting discussion on the view-hot topics under mixed teams:
I just left an excellent counseling session. I feel focused and excited. I am going to create a visioning board about my dreams and what I am worth. I want to keep this energy alive!
I will do some planting today. Flowers. Probably in pots. I wish I had more light in my yard. I’d love to grow tomatoes. But I love my trees too.
I’m having to drop my writing group. I’m worried. It feels like an open door is closing. I hope I can keep the energy going. I will look for a local group.
I am reading this by Suze Orman. I feel more inspired. I am making a budget and including savings in there. I have been disempowering myself by having a bad relationship with money.
I’ve been trying to write this in third person but someone suggested I try first person. There are parts that would change of course (she won’t know what others are thinking). I’m already feeling how powerful this could be. I hear her coming through me. She’s asking why I didn’t let her speak before. It’s powerful because she’s a character who doesn’t have a voice.
We went for a walk and she talked as usual which is great. I read an annoying email right before I left work and my mind wanted to return to that. But I stayed focused. She is really much more important.
I love (sometimes) how he critiques the movies I’m watching. Last night he kept saying, “Who are these people?” Actually, he was right. All the characters were rich and snobbish and obnoxious.
