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I went a week without biting my nails. Then I bit them all off. It was torture not biting them. Even when I have acrylics I mess with them; when two weeks has passed & they’re looking all crappy & I don’t have the money to get them done, I rip them off. That’s not normal. Or well, whats not normal is that it doesn’t hurt to rip half my nail off with them. It’s almost satisfying. When I don’t rip them off and get them taken off like your supposed to, my nails are all flat and ugly looking so I bite them just so they’ll look normal again. Acrylics are evil. When I move to Dallas, I read about a salon that does semi-permanent tips. They allow the natural nail to grow underneath, so they’re perfect for people who bite their nails. I don’t bite the acrylics until they start coming lose and bothering me, so I think I could let the semi-permanent tips sit long enough to let my nails grow out. Then maybe when they look pretty I won’t bite them. I doubt it, but it’s worth a shot. If not, then I will give up on this goal, resign myself to the fact that I bite my nails, and have my nails done in acrylics or semi-permanent tips for the rest of my life.

When I first made this goal, I was a completely different person. I can’t really pinpoint a moment that I decided to become more confident, but I have done so many things this past year that are so far out of my comfort zone that I don’t know what ‘unusual’ is anymore. I’ve had to speak up or I would’ve gotten lost in the chaos. Maybe I just grew up, I don’t know, but I don’t feel myself wanting to be confident anymore. I feel myself being confident.

I might not be in shape like I wanted when I first wrote this goal, but now I do exercise regularly. I am at least getting more exercise than I did back then. I don’t work out, but I am active and that’s what’s important.