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1.i figured it out girl, breaking is what the heart is for.2.everything that matters breaks in two.3.wheres your picket fence, love? wheres that shiny car?4.when you see my face i hope it gives you hell.5.you can take back your memories, they are of no use to me.6.you can sit beside me when the world comes down.7.yesterday just took me hostage.8.and life might never get better than this.9.i’m working on my backwards walk, walking with no shoes or socks.10.i’m working on my faults and cracks, filling in the blanks and gaps; and when i write them down they don’t make sense. i need you to pencil in the rest.11.throw your camera in the air and wave ‘em like you just don’t care.12.i’m a mascot for what you’ve become.13.your pupils are big, they are rolling like dice.14.the only suicidal thing here is the door.15.i wanna scream ‘i love you’ from the top of my lungs but i’m afraid someone else will hear me.16.you can only blame your problems on the world before it all becomes the same old song.17.wrap your arms around me untill your knuckles are burning white.18.all your tears couldn’t match the bitter taste of all these waster years.19.in the clear view, theres a silhouette.20.it’s been a bad day please don’t take a picture.21.two gay guys get married, brought the family to it’s knees. how did they do it? smash us to smithereens, and i’ve found myself some culprits it’s two young, gay republicans.22.why can’t these meds be any damn good?23.my smile is an open wound without you.24.everytime you go to bed at night i wonder what goes on behind closed eyes, what else could you be keeping from me?25.i swear i’d burn the city down to show you the light.26.i need to keep you like this in my mind.27.remember me through flash photography and screams.28.and i think i love you but i’m better on my own.29.i’m feeling reckless and i feel the need to stress this, tonight will be a classic like edgar allen poe.30. i hope this helps to clarify, i hope you die.31.some kid walks into my school and opens fire, heard any good jokes lately coz we sure do need ‘em.32.and you can buy yourself some implants but you can’t buy a soul.33.so whats it gonna be? are you real to me? or are you non-dairy creamer?34.she said, she said, she said, why don’t you just drop dead?35.and i’m a million different people from one day to the next.36.i was born with a plastic spoon in my mouth.37.i screw my life up evermore as i puke my guts out one the floor and i fuck my life up evermore as i shit my heart out on the foor.38.life could be worse, you could be in a hearse.39. and i don’t want a conversation, i just wanna cry in front of you. i don’t want to talk about it because i’m in love with you.40.i will brush off all the dirt and pretend this didn’t hurt.41.i tore the muscle out from your chest and used it to stub out ciggarettes.42.i’m sorry that i forgot your birthday, i’m sorry that i was shit-faced.43.get up, it’s time to die.44.never meant to say the words ‘i love you’ but it’s in my heart and it feels new.45.i lost my crown when it hit the ground with an almighty thud.46.you could call me a rolling stone because i’m always on the move.47.what do your hissy fits teach you except how to cry?48. i’m eating rat poison for dinner, pull the cord on the phone, i’m dining alone tonight.49.you’ve got a nerve giving me the cold sholder, giving me the twice over.50.i love mistakes, especially ones you’ve made.51.finders keepers – the whole thing is a lie.52.the more i know the less i understand.53.you stain my fingers like a headache the pill won’t kill.54.i never gave my world away, maybe i should, maybe i could.55.hatred never looked this good, who ever thought it could?56.make no mistake those smiles are fake.57.i’ve got a really bad disease, it’s got me begging on my hands and knees. take me to the emergency cause something seems to be missing, somebody take the pain away it’s like an ulcer bleeding in my brain. send me to the pharmacy so i can lose my memory, i’m elated. medicated. lord knows i’ve tried to find a way to runaway.58.you are a victim of the system, you are your own worst enemy.59.did you stand too close to the fire? lie a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone.60.i don’t need you like you think i do.61.hollywood whore passed out on the floor, i’m sorry but the party’s over.62.little girl, little girl why are you crying? inside your restless soul your heart is dying.63.there is no place like home when you got no place to go.64.you’d be surprised what i endure, what makes you so self assured?65.you’re feeling cheap but you love being used.66.you’re the only one i love, scares me more everyday.67.i tried to tell you before you left, but i was screaming under my breath: you are the only thing that makes sense.68.it’s a mess. it’s a start.69.remember me when you’re the one you always dreamed.70.my body is broken – yours is bent.71.pucker up for heavens sake, theres never been more at stake.72.a loser, a winner, a cock in a dildos disguise.73.theres a crisis in the slow lane, are you figuring life out? you will miss the point and question where you are.74.you tell your boyfriend if he says he’s got beef that i’m a vegetarian and i ain’t fucking scared of him.75.i’ll need you more than you need me, i am ready to go anywhere with you.76.how long does it take to see that we are more than ment to be?77.please don’t go crazy if i tell you the truth.78.every broken bone reminds me of the second time i followed you home.

so far in 2009 i have:
•got a canon slr camera.
•saw twin atlantic live, and loved every minute of it. truely one of the best birthday presents i’ll ever get.
•saw russell howard live even after all the trouble we had with tickets.
•been happier than i’ve ever been before.
•done my standard grade exams and i think i might have done okay, we’ll find out on august 5th i guess!
•i got tickets to go see tim minchin, i can’t wait, i’m near the front and he’s like my god.
•i managed to get tickets to green day at the secc after hundreds of people didn’t.
•i went to london for the first time to go to my first music festival.
•i’m going to ireland on holiday.
•i started 5th year.
•i’ve got out more.
•i’ve made more friends and tried my best to keep old ones.
•re-arranged my room and added loads of dvds to my collection.
•keep my new years resolution.

i think i’m getting there.
i’m certainly more confident than i was, and it has really been great.
i have more close friends and i’m getting better at talking to people i don’t know well and also talking in front of groups of people.