atenderwoman

I am not a wife yet. But I know who’s wife I want to be. He is this amazing, strong, hard working, handsome, compassionate man that melts my heart. I first noticed him when we were 13 and now it is so many years later .. and we are very much in love. It is so sweet to love my friend of so many years so deeply and truly. My love for him grows daily. I didn’t really think that there was only one for me until the timing of it all just brought us together in the sweetest of moments.

I want to be a good wife with all of my heart. And I do not think this pursuit starts after our vows are said. I think it starts now. By his love for me, I learn about love. He is real, he is honest and therefore I know that I can trust his words. There is something so deep in my heart that makes me never want to do anything that could hurt him.

This is so mushy! What can I say.. I am in love. The kind of love that fills your heart with joy and I can’t help but gush :)

I didn’t let myself look at this for a good while. I wanted to be sure I was in a place where there was no chance that I would get upset by reading it.

I did it. I am over him.. And I have been for quite some time. You can do it, too. You will be whole again.. and you will be better and stronger for what you are going through.

I am with a guy who went through a similar season. We are both thankful for our pasts because they brought us together. I celebrate him everyday and feel so blessed to have him. Hang in there friends, there is so much to live for.

It has been nearly 5 months since I have written on this goal. I am certainly done with it and will click the button as soon as I finish writing this. I just read all of my entries and I am challenged by my own words and I see strength in this woman. I am strong and I did let go. I walked away and while I still hear from him.. I am so blissfully happy with where I am today. All of my yesterdays got me here and I would never trade today.. not for anything in this world.

The Lord blessed me with this incredible man.. who loves me so deeply. We get to be in love every day and I am so happy that I let go of my former love. I love living again.. and I have for a while now. And he has nothing to do with it.

Good bye old friend. You taught me many things and I am thankful that you were a part of my life. But I have let you go and it’s the best thing I ever did. Good bye.