atilamave

wowwwwwww

I’m totally convenced that I never will have a baby… when I broke up with my boyfriend, a year ago, we was trying that I get pregned… now seems that I’m playing agaist myself, by knowing mens uncapables to have a family… WHY????

I almost give up… I dont believe that something like this will happen to me never ever…

Well, three months ago I’ve left the only person in the entire world that can do something like this for me… so I have no hope to find anyone else that propose me… That make me unhappy.

I have my baby, a RX150… I’m so, so, so happy!!!

I’m trying to do things that make me happy: walk, reed, see movies, make new friends… but sometimes I feel sad again. I guess that is a matter of time.

Bueno, tengo un “futuro amigo” junto a quien planeo hacer esto… sólo es cuestión de juntar el dinero y consolidar nuestra amistad!!

...but not only have a baby: have a family. I dont want to have a child alone, and I’m so sad ‘cause still that special person to get married is not by my side.

Now that I’ve lose some weight, I have a lot of new clothes!!

... and I’ll keep doing it, because is so nice to make someone smile and feel good!

My little one and me spend some time together… He feels good and I feel absolutely calm, more free, more happy, more connected with he and with myself.

Every day I work harder and harder on that… I think I’m almost ready to face the life without fear.

Oh! I also wanto to get a tatoo with the arabic word “maktub”, that means “it was wroten”; all happens for a reason… and this year a lot of things (goods and not so goods) happens to me, in every part of my life (proffesional, personal, laboral, with my friends and in my sentimental life). Maybe I’d must get a tatoo with the phrase “dejà vù” too!!! jajaja!!

I want to get a tatoo with the logo of the spanish band Heroes del Silencio… all what they wrote seems wrote with my own experiences… It’s really awsome!

Uhuhu!!!! I can drive now!!! Excellent!!!! Be afraid, world!

... but in the last two days, something happens in my life that injected me with a new energy… I think that I can do it now!

I tried, but for a million of differents things, I cannot do it!

I must to know how get out of my sadness: beloved people died, broke up with my boyfriend, my friends’re fools, nobody seems to understand me, my real love just make me cry… too much. Bad year. I’m feeling really bad, really sad. And don`t know what the bloody hell do with myself.

At least, I have my passport again!!!

I spend 3 hours in the PFA, so the process now is in his hands! In 40 days my new passport will be delivered to my father’s home. I can’t wait to have it!!!