Last June, I had about 12” of my beautiful hair cut off.
And I HATED it!
More than half a year later, I’m finally making peace with that action and this goal.
It’s just hair, it’ll grow back, and it’s for a good cause, but maybe cutting my long, beautiful locks off while feeling very fat, very hormonal, and very pregnant was not a good idea.
As silly or superficial as it may sound, it really shook my sense of self and made me feel very unattractive. The fact that I had a horrible haircut didn’t help either. The stylist seemed to misunderstand what I wanted, and after she cut and styled my hair, I was too upset to try to get her to fix it.
Just this last week, my hair has grown to the point where I can put it up in a (very short) ponytail. And after a few trims, the horrible cut has somewhat righted itself. That and losing most of my baby weight plus having more stable hormones has brought me back to no longer feeling unattractive, but for a while, it was really bad.. like so bad that when my daughter was born, I wanted no pictures with her, and I really regret that now.
I wish I had considered the effect that being pregnant may have while cutting my hair off for donation. I may or may not grow and donate again, but I will not do so while pregnant.
I’m now okay talking about it without bursting into tears, and I just took my hair out of the salon bag and put it in a food storage bag in preparation of sending it out tomorrow.