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I quit smoking weed 7 weeks ago today. Like many people I felt like it was really holding me back in all aspects of my life. Being that my roommate smokes every day, it gets pretty hard from time to time. Especially today, the bastard came home with the most delicious looking purple stuff. The fact that I’ve been clean for 7 weeks and still get pretty bad cravings every now and then really makes me wonder. I wonder if quitting pot is closer to quitting alcohol than people give it credit for, or if it is just fun and relaxing, and that is why I crave it. It’s probably a combination of the two. I’m definitely not the guy who’s planning on quitting forever, but after 8 extremely cloudy years, I feel like I need to take a year off and let my brain and lungs recover. I must say, it does feel pretty good, for the most part, but to be honest, as I look over at my ridiculously blazed roommate sitting on the other end of the couch, I am overcome by opposing feelings. The first of which being, “wow, that son of a bitch is high! God that looks relaxing.” This feeling quickly fades and morphs in to “wow, that son of a bitch is high! God he looks like a retard right now. His eyes are almost closed and he can barely talk.” I love the guy though, but when I think about it in those terms as I continue to write this, it makes me realize that I am not going to break, I’m gonna stay strong and keep it going. If I smoke at this point, I will be so disappointed in myself I won’t even enjoy it anyway. As a piece of advice to anyone who has recently quit or is thinking about quitting, WRITE. Whether it be expressing your feelings on here, some other site, or just in a notebook, writing and expressing what’s going on inside your brain is very helpful and therapeutic. I’m sure no one will read this, but who cares, it was very helpful for me and got me through another day without doing something I would surely regret.