its amazing what a little self-esteem, support and confidence can do for honesty. i really believe that if people would like to be honest they need to start being honest with themselves lying is a sign of insecurity. define what you are insecure about, start doing activities you are not familiar with, learn, grow, just be real, if you develop who you are you will never have to lie to anyone or apologize.
I realized today that I make my parents proud everyday. Even though they may not tell me, I will always be my dad’s little girl.
i am not changing who i am because some asshole guy i dated said once that he only liked girls with long hair. i like my hair it looks pretty. fuck stupid goals that make you less real.
he is the best friend a girl could ask for! even better than diamonds. which are pretty ugly so he is well on his way.
I was not designed to have friends. I am a solo artist. I will always be satisfied by myself. We are not all designed to be social creatures. Acceptance makes the entire world alright.
I met him in Starbucks. We are in love. We play on our apple computers and talk about the world. He knows me. He has always known me. He is a gift. We live together now. Though I haven’t yet made this my home, I know with time the entire world will fall into place. We are getting married one day and I am glad. He is perfect.
I tried really hard to push this boy away but he wouldn’t budge and had I done it, I would have made the biggest mistake of my life. I will never again treat people as dispoable items.
I have met a group of climbers and they are going out three times a week, I have decided on sundays as my day to go. I am looking forward to it.
I am so lucky, I have met some of the most incredible people in the world thanks to SAIT, I love each and everyone of my friends.
I am in love. I didn’t want it and it found me. I tried to run away from it but it stuck. Life works in really amazing ways.
You would think for a girl who prefers to spend her nights at home with her family that this would be an easy goal to accomplish but I feel like I am being selfish for even trying. I think that I choose superficial ways of taking care of myself rather than looking within at what really needs to be taken care of.
I want to fall in love and I want to be in a relationship, however I know that I am not emotionally ready for that kind of responsibility. I know right now that by focusing on school and developing friendships with girls (sorry guys it never works) that I am setting myself up for longterm personal success. If I was to jump into another relationship again I believe that I would lose sight of whats important (me). I guess what I am trying to say is I feel like a hypocrite wanting something as much as I do but than at the same time avoiding it because I know its not what is best for me.
I think my parents would be proud of me if I graduated college, was financally independent, was in a healthy relationship, and had a close circle of girl friends. These are all things I want for myself aswell though. Its just so hard to achieve, I doubt there is ever a perfect balance so because I am really not into relationships right now and I have a really hard time with long term commitments I think I will just stick to focusing at school and becoming rich. Everything else will just fall into place right?
I fucking suck at this. I mean, we broke up for all the right reasons but there is still apart of me that hopes he will call want to hangout and than tell me he misses me just so I can look him in the eyes and say fuck you.
On friday I am going to the mall to get shoes and pants. While I am there I will try on a couple pairs of glasses to see if there are any I love…
I took the first step and got in touch with a great artist. I just need to find the money and time to go down.
My ex recently told me after his brother called to yell at me, just don’t think about it. For the first time ever I was able to just let it go. I think from now on whenever I am going to worry about something I have no control over I will just say to myself “why are you worrying? let it go.” I mean if it works like magic when dave says it there is no reason it can’t work for me.
I got my u-pass for school today which means that I can take the train/bus whenever. I took it twice today. Its not that bad. I just need to remember to pack for the weather and bring music with me.
