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made it to 23 days… then got dumped..now its been 4 days! Well this whole situation SUCKS but I can tell u something… altho I did smoke, I only did it once and as SOON as I did… i HATED it!!!! It made me feel SOOOOO SLOWWW!!! Unproductive… just like a bum on a log.. not doing anything and having no intention of WANTING to do anything! And for this reason I can tell you… i do NOT wanna smoke! I now OFFICIALLY have no yearning of wanting to get stoned.. at ALL! I did it cause I was sad, and depressed… thats the only things that helps me forget and not think of things… but I was supposed to be getting over that! I do not know how to express this but its ok.. everything happens for a reason and now… me & george r back together and i do NOT wanna smoke!

I’ll be back to let you know how its going…

I HATE STARTING OVER! I WAS SOOOO PROUD!

Ok so I’ve made it past 3 weeks!!! SOOOOOO exciting!!!

Its just SOOOOO easy not to smoke… why would I WANNA feel like that??? Ok… so thats a lie! lol I think pot is great.. its DEFINITELY a BIG pain reliever! Physically and emotionally! You have an argument with someone… smoke you’ll get over it n stop thinking about it! You have a headache.. smoke! Hangover… SMOKE!!! DEFINITELY!!! lol

Its natures herbal remedy to everything!!! BUT!!!! there does come a point where u become so dependant that u forget how to fight ur own battles!!! When I’m upset I have to deal with it now… shit I can cry now! lol When i have a headache I actually take some Advil now… hangover? Advil! THATS INSANE!!! And it works… I mean… Its definitely NOT the same but its the next best thing! lol

Well all i know is I wont even knock it! But i wont do it ANY more!!! Good luck to all other quitting! =)

Wish me luck!!!

1) Listening to the rain!!!
2) My boyfriend
3) Spending time with my friends
4) Spending time with my family
5) Laying down and talking to my boyfriend
6) KISSES!!!!!
7) Sitting on my patio and smoking cigarettes with my best friends/family
8) BBQs
9) Shopping
10) Helping people
11) Taking my little sister out(when I’m patient enough)
12) Watching movies in bed
13) Going to the theatre to watch a new movie
14) Playing with my nephew and noticing how much he’s grown!
15) Meeting new people
16) Learning something new
17) Going out with friends and just sitting there having a few drinks
18) Going out to dinner with a group of close friends(as u can tell I’m a friendly person who has found her best friends!)
19) Talking on the phone
20) Laughing so much I cry
21) When me n Jacqui have our moments where only we understand eachother and we’re laughing so much it hurts!
22) George’s immitations
23) Watching My Best Friends Wedding
24) Watching friends
25) HAVING TIME TO NAP!!!
26) Going to sleep early and waking up with time to relax!
27) Having time to get ready and make myself look purty! =)
28) Coloring my hair!
29) Wearing dresses!
30) Wearing high heels!(Makes you feel pretty n helps your posture!)
31) Going to the Hard Rock(Passions..FAVORITE club!)
32) Listening to music!
33) Going to concerts!
34) Christian Bale(SOOOO hot!!!)
35) Football season!!!! “RRRR U READY FOR SOME FOOTBALLLLLL??!”
36) Going to the beach
37) Going to the pool… ESPECIALLY after the beach! =)
38) Jacuzzi!
39) Having time to go to the gym! =)
40) Watching the Simpsons!!!!
41) Reading!!!!!!
42) Having time to do NOTHING!!!
43) Taking a day to myself
44) Having the strength to turn my phone off and get away from the world!
45) Swinging on the swings!
46) Going to the park
47) Writing(especially @ the park)
48) ORLANDO… Well… DISNEYYY!!!! =)
49) Letting loose and feeling like a little kid again!!!
50) Being the center of attention!(hey @ least I’m truthful right???)
51) Getting mail!
52) Going on road trips!
53) Walking & talking
54) Stuffed animals
55) New clothes =)
56) Peruvian food!
57) Going to Peru
58) Helping out @ my church
59) Donating
60) Cleaning(i just have to be in the mood when it comes to something thats mine)
61) Making people smile!
62) Being there for people when they’re down
63) Doodling!
64) Listening
65) New cell phones!
66) Showers
67) New shampoos n conditioners!
68) New loofahs!
69) Making love(sounds wrong but tru!)
70) Being in love
71) Visiting my cousin(best friend)
72) Running into people I haven’t seen in a WHILE!!!
73) Hearing from people I haven’t talked to in years!!!!
74) Having people visit!
75) Playing spades!
76) Playing poker!
77) Wine!!!! =)
78) Listening to the ocean
79) Watching the stars
80) Reading my horoscope
81) Taking pictures(live in the moment.. only way to keep memories of them)
82) Journaling
83) Markers!!!!
84) Rainbows
85) Butterflies… }]i[{
86) Being up in time for breakfast
87) Listening 2 OLD songs
88) Singing old songs with the boyzzz!!! =)
89) Pedicures
90) Lipgloss
91) MAC eyeshadows
92) New make up PERIOD!!! lol
93) Being able to watch Saved By The Bell!
94) Catching 90210 on sometimes!
95) Finding/people finding me on MySpace!
96) Getting new computer hardware/software
97) Babiesss!!! =)
98) Going to the airport to pick people up! It means someone I care about is coming home!!!!
99) Driving & listening to music!
100) This website!!!!

I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!