azraq21

i enjoy platonic dates, u know those dates where u go out, have fun n get 2 know each other…but u know those don’t usually last 4 more than 3-4 dates…we just end up as friends after that…they know i’m planning to remain a virgin, and i’m real honest abt this…when i say i wana remain a virgin, i also mean, no sexual acts at all…no nudity, no partial nudity even, no fondling or petting or anything sexual at all…i don’t just mean ‘staying a virgin’ technically. i feel good having been able to control myself all these years, i’m 21 now n i feel great…i’ve had my chances in the past if i had wanted to but i’m so glad i didnt. its cool, most of my friends think i’m crazy, but this is just how it is for me…it would be awfully stereotypical to say that all guys just want sex, cos the guys i know totally appreciate this abt me n they respect and even admire that…once in awhile some prick-type will come along to try their luck n i’ll be hearing stories abt ‘their pre-planned quest’ to conquer my feminity…lol…den i jus drop them without a word, n yeah, they’re usually left trying 2 explain themselves n stuff…hehe….being this way gives me a sense of control over myself n my relationship with a guy, it gives some kind of inner power, so yeah, this is a major priority of mine n a pact i made with my sisters. i dnt feel like i’m missin out on anything, i’m still having loads of fun, plus i’ve never ever had 2 cry over any guy like most of my gfs…thats why they call me the agony aunt cos i’ll be the one comforting them n takin them out to hav sum real fun after all that.

i never really got addicted 2 mj, but i was addicted 2 sumtin else…it was sum kinda weight loss drug which i started on wen i was 17, continued takin it till i was 20 and started pot by that time as well…those diet drugs were alot more harmful even if they were legal, so i kinda switched 2 weed, den i slowly weaned myself off weed, since its real hard 2 get 4 me…maybe cos i’m a bit of a priss, i’d go thru hell to defend my rep in coll, so yea…lol…i was a closeted pothead, used 2 get em frm my sis who’s a pothead….anyways, dat dam thing made me put on like 15 pounds in just 2 months…but i’ll tell ya one thing, i beccame a chain smoker after i stopped weed…now i’m smoking less…but heck…i’m still smoking n i really wish i could quit cos i’m getting real broke now…
so my advice 2 anyone tryna quit weed, jus try doin it less n less…n if u’re a social druggie, then d best thing 2 do wud be 2 keep yourself away frm the other weedheads…dnt socialize wif them 2 much…i actually transferred to a different college jus cos of this…n yea its all good now…..yeah, so to control cravings, wen i first quit i actually smoked dunhill reds…or anything strong…tht kept me off it i guess….the weird thing is, smoking is actually alot more harmful den bong-ing ur mj :(

woohoooo…I’ve lost about 15 pounds…I’m soo happy!! I’m gonna go shop till I drop after I’m totally happy with my body…aint nuthin wrong with keepin fit! Maybe I’ll go down another 10-20 pounds :p

I’m 5’5 and 132 pounds now…I think I’m hitting a plateau though because its been about 2-3 weeks since I saw a change in weighing scale reading…but I ain’t givin up…I exercise 5-7 times a week, its usually 1 hour of jogging and have been eating 1200kcal a day…I’m keeping up with that, plus I’m starting to replace coffee with green tea because studies have shown that drinking that helps to raise your metabolism thereby speeding up the rate at which your body burns fat….

Wish me luck!