badlydrawngirl

i thought i was in love with someone who loved me just as much..but that ended about two weeks ago and i guess that thats how life is sometimes…and it still hurts..iv been in relationships that were fun and non serious and i know im still young and have time for all of the “real love” stuff..but i would like to get a taste..to know that something and someone in my life will always be there and never leave me…i still miss brian [my ex] and i would love to have him back..but thats not going to happen..so now im just dreaming of a better time when i actually believed in real love

i hate the way i look..iv grown use to waking up and avoiding the mirror…the fact is that i hate hating my body but i cant seem to avert my mind from the pounds that seem to latch on around my stomach and my breast that are too large for my age, of only 16. I am a 44 DD and it can really get frustrating. my back hurts, nothing fits, and i would love to be able to find a dress for prom [my first one this year] that i actually felt pretty in and not like a tied up baloon ready to pop…but i am running out of ideas on how to get my self confidence up. People tell me to hang out with my friends because they “love you no matter what”. and yes even though this is true, all of my friends are skinny, cute, and petite. I’m…well…not and when im with them i feel even larger than what i am. I’m 5’0 and have a pretty face…i think i would look wonderful if i could just lose the weight in my breast and the rest of my body…