I'm doing 42 things
stop waiting for him, 'cause he was never mine in the first place and he'll never be back again (read all 25 entries…)
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19 months ago
...almost there…so close…
balumina's Life List
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1. Stop living in fear
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2. break my vicious circles by creating a healthy daily routine and religiously sticking to it!!
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3. Honour myself, in thought, word and deed
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4. Allow myself to only be treated well by the people I choose to have friendships and relationships with. If they do not, I need to find the courage to move on without them.
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5. distance myself from negative voices
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6. eat healthy
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7. exercise every day
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8. keep my house always clean and tidy
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9. be well-dressed
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10. stay focused on my research
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11. meditate
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12. do yoga daily
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13. write my gratitude journal daily
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14. Be brave enough to finally love and take care of myself!
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15. be in control over my own life
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16. be in the best shape of my life at age 35
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17. stop using food as a coping alternative to my loneliness and despair
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18. start the day feeling good about my life and about myself
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19. do not let others hurt me
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20. make the most of where i live
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21. allow myself to be human (fall in love, make mistakes...)
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22. be aware of how much money I have, of the investments I make, of how much money I spend, especially for utilities
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23. respect my inner boundaries and borders
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24. learn to kitesurf
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25. lose 10 pounds
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26. go to the beach by myself once a week (mid-May to end-Sept)
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27. learn maths
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28. become a computer expert
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29. swim once a week
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30. write a book
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31. get a new house
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32. improve my French
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33. get another dog
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34. start jogging again
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35. swim with dolphins
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36. cross the atlantic ocean by sail
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37. visit Patagonia
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38. visit Tibet
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39. spend 6 months in South-Africa
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40. spend 3 months in the States
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41. stop waiting for him, 'cause he was never mine in the first place and he'll never be back again
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42. Be Focused And Determined And Make Things Happen
1 cheer317 people
Recent entries
I'm afraid...
22 months ago
of people hurting me
of myself, of my needs, of my dreams
of accomplishing things
of making the most of what I have
of reaching out to others
of loneliness
of being rejected once more
of meeting inadequate people once more
of losing my family
of falling ill
of having an accident
of facing people
of being happy
of taking care of myself
of deeming my life important to me
of truly living
of not waiting day by day for death to come
These are the fears haunting me. These are the fears I have to overcome.
Trapped
22 months ago
I’m not doing very well… I am trapped in my old habits and every time I manage to start a good habit, it is just so damn easy to slip back to the old (and vicious) ones.
Take today for instance: it is midday and all I did was wasting my time online instead of getting my lectures ready. My mood is depressed and everything looks grim.
These are the routines I’m struggling to establish:
- walk my pet at 9 am and 6 pm every day
- follow a healthy diet by putting care and effort in planning my meals
- go to bed early so that I can wake up early and exercise
- exercise daily even if for just 15 minutes (ideally 1 hour)
- stay focused on my research 4 hours a day
- go shopping at least once a week (window shopping is fine too) or do something (anything) outside my safe zone.
OK… I’m back to square one. It can’t get any worse, and the best is still to come. Good luck!!
