barren

Hey Everybody,

I hope your battles are all going well. Today marks 2 years since I quit drinking, which means two years ago today was when I woke up with what turned out to be my very last hangover.

I get angry at drinkers still, but usually it takes the form of scorn or sarcasm. I wish I wasn’t so petty, but I am. But I guess there are worse things to be. Thinking about drinking, or about “not drinking”, however, is something I don’t do anymore, and haven’t for a long time.

I am no longer on speaking terms with a sibling that drinks daily, and won’t expose my kids to her, so I’m the “asshole” of the family, but that’s an easy burden to shoulder. That I freed myself from the poisonous rubbish that is alcohol is worth it to me. I don’t give a flying fuck what anybody thinks about me. I am now being the sort of husband and father that I am so proud to be!

So hang in there, my fellow freaks, it gets better! Do whatever you have to: grapefruit juice & tonics, scuba diving in caves, building robots, screaming, posting here; WHATEVER it takes to not drink.

You are strong, and alcohol is a load of shit. But it’s a tricky, conniving, sneaky load of shit, so KICK IT’S ASS and keep on NOT DRINKING!

Love to all here. This place creates true miracles.

Best,

~barren

Finally sold that awful fucking bottle shop and got out of that clusterfuck of a situation. We actually sold it a while back, but just recently finished off all of the finances,paperwork and other assorted bullshit.

So that’s another monkey off my back. Thanks to everyone here at 43T, that shit-hole didn’t pull me down into the deep, deep hole of being a lifetime drinker, like so many of the unfortunates that I catered too there…so another THANKS to everyone on this site.

Or thereabouts, sober. Sold my bottle shop 2 months ago, and couldn’t be happier about that. I’m free to focus on better things, and not having to deal with drunks on a daily basis has removed a big hunk of the bitterness from my soul. FUCK ALCOHOL! What a waste of time, money, everything.

I know most of you don’t know me, but I used to post a LOT around here. I was an excuse-making, self-delusional beer swilling slob before 43T. Generally between 20 and 30 beers per week. My recycle bin was always so embarrassing—and that was AFTER I took a bunch of bottles out of it and threw them in the trash where nobody could see.

And I quit, just like that, with the help of this website and the great people here. So stick with it. Just decide not to drink today. Don’t think about tomorrow. Trust me, if you make that decision enough days in a row, the todays become tomorrows and next weeks and next months before you even realize it. You can ALL do it. YOU CAN ALL DO IT.