Many life circumstances are totally outside of my own control. I’ve been dealing with low-level panic attacks for some weeks now, which have become worse recently. There’s a very strong temptation to self-medicate with alcohol to push the problems away, even though I know that it won’t solve anything. On the other hand, I occasionally need relief and just bring peace and quiet back into my mind for a while although I’ve alerted my GP to the fact that something needs to change soon.
Many other (ex-)addicts are needing to deal with trauma issues, ADHD-difficulties which are perhaps still undiagnosed, abuse in many and varied forms and any number of developmental problems which they are unable to address on their own. Quite often the problem isn’t even recognised or understood, it took me almost 50 years to understand that a lot of the crap I’ve been taking was related to ADD/ADHD issues.
(Ex-)addicts too often need to deal with damaged self-esteem after having been knocked around for so many years for mostly incomprehensible reasons. The abuse of the drug of one’s choice is almost always a symptom of something else going on life, an inability to cope and a quiet, quick and temporarily efficient way of making the pain go away in a life that has become unbearable in some way.
Life sucks sometimes…