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Yeah. We are finally alright again. I really didn’t think it would happen. We started hanging out again and I lived with her for a week while her family was gone and broke down and started crying and talking to her about all the problems. Now we miss being around each other 24/7. It’s going well.

Happy birthday!

So I met this boy (typical story huh?). We hit it off right away and ended up kissing. We were going to start dating but some of our friends caused problems and we didn’t think it was worth it. However, he remained somebody who was always there for me when I needed him even though we didn’t talk all that much. About 7 months later we almost kissed again but I stopped it. Then a year after the initial kiss, we kissed again.

I feel like it’s just one of those things that is going to have to play out. We’re obviously attracted to each other and eventually something’s probably going to happen again…at least I hope!

I’m almost 20 and I’ve never been camping before. My best friend and I are planning to go this summer. We are thinking about making a road trip out of it too. How fun would that be?!

However, we are not real wilderness girls. It should be interesting.

1/6 of the way there!

I don’t know if this is really worth my time. I have a problem that I want to say everything! However, I think realistically, if I just said a little about every day before I went to bed, this could be something I could keep up with. However, nothing truly exciting happens to me.

Is keeping a journal good for you? I’ve heard it is, but why?

I can’t say that I’ve actually done this yet. The first night I added it on the list, I tried to do some. Do you know how high of a number 1000 is though? I think that’s a little ambitious. Maybe during the school year when I am in more of a routine. I can do some in the morning, during study breaks, at the gym, and before bed, right?

Any suggestions on how to motivate myself to this?

I think going to a college so far away from anybody that I knew helped a lot with this. I had to make all new friends but I still have people who care about me back home. It’s nice to have a bunch of people who care about you, that definitely helps with the self esteem.

Plus, the fact that I built a new life for myself without anybody else is comforting. I can be on my own and be alright.

I think it will also go up as a go to school and know more things. It always feels good to know what you’re talking about.

Before I went to college, I didn’t like to wear a lot of makeup or really do anything to try to make myself look better. Because 1) I wasn’t very concerned with my appearance and 2) I felt like it was “cheating”- I wanted to be beautiful for being me, not because I put my makeup on well.

However, at college I realized that EVERYONE uses makeup and products to make themselves look better. I still don’t like to use a lot of makeup but I realize now that when I’m going out it’s not a bad thing to use some makeup to make myself look a little more dressed up. Plus, it can be fun.

This is something I’ve always wanted to do. To me, it represents being young and free spirited. It’s not something that you can just plan to do though. It has to a spur of the moment thing and the right moment hasn’t presented itself.

Hopefully someday…

I’ve not been doing so well this summer. I haven’t gone to work out over the summer so I haven’t done any stretching or anything. Maybe I should try to stretch as I read or before I go to bed. I don’t really see that happening though.

I’m spending a lot more time with them. Granted, I’m home for the summer so it was sort of going to happen if I wanted it to or not. I’ve definitely made a lot more effort to spend time with my little brother though. I know he misses me when I’m gone and I want to make sure we do have fun when I’m around.

So he hasn’t been allowed to talk to me because his new girlfriend thought I was such a threat. She’s in high school still and is really, really immature. Anyway, he started talking to me anyway. In fact, we talked everyday on the phone for a while. However, now that we are both back in the same state…he won’t talk to me again. I don’t know what to do.

basically, my best friend was a boy and I’m a girl. That’s where the problems started I suppose. We got along so, so well. We could talk about anything and everything and hung out every day. Usually he has a lot of trouble getting close to people but he let me in for some reason. Plus, I’m not one of those people who wants to spend all her time with the same person, I get tired of them. I think everyone probably does. However, we didn’t tire of each other. Anyway, eventually he developed a crush on me and things went downhill from there…

After not talking for 6 months, he called and said that he’s sorry. However, he said that he doesn’t want to be friends really. Apparently a talk now and then would be GREAT as long as it isn’t about anything personal. It seems to be getting better though so I’ve got hope that we might be back where we started someday.

I recently rediscovered this goal and found a website with some stretches that are supposed to help increase flexibility. Plus, I’ve been working out a lot more lately and the other day I had a breakthrough. When I was stretching my legs, my head rested on them comfortably. I was shocked. I had just been running so my muscles were loose but it made me realize that being more flexible was something I could do!

I gave soda up for lent this year and I haven’t really had a whole lot to drink since then. Granted, every now and then I have one, but for the most part, I’m drinking water these days. I used to crave a soda during the day and I don’t have that anymore which is wonderful. I don’t really feel guilty when I do have a pop since it’s only every now and then.

but I’m a sorority girl now! I love the girls in my house and I have a great time with them. I’m at a smaller school so it’s not the typical “sorority girl” image that most people think of. I’m still not completely sold on the idea but for now, I’m a member.

I’ve been hurt a lot of times already because I used to trust people too much. My best friend in high school wasn’t a good person to me but I was too nice to ever let her down in return. I didn’t want to “stoop to that level” and while that is true, I think that’s also called standing up for yourself. Then my boyfriend. Then another best friend. Then my boyfriend. Not kidding. The sad thing for me is that now I relized that there is one person I do trust now and it scared me so much that I accused him of being dishonest since I’ve been wrong so many times about people before. I have a problem…

I actually did it! I didn’t think it was ever going to happen. I feel so much better now. I don’t even really know when it happened. I just realized that I hadn’t thought about him in a while and that I didn’t really care anymore. Granted, I still care for him and see him as a friend. However, I realized a long time ago that he wasn’t good enough for me so in my head I understood but couldn’t quite get my heart to catch up.

I added this goal a long time ago but have never really done anything to work towards achieving it. Now, however, I’m realizing that it is important to me. The last two days in a row (I know, only two, it’s a start though) I’ve sat with my legs stretched out while I was working on school work. I think that’s very easy for me to do. Most of my classes assign a lot of reading and I can sit and stretch while I’m reading.

Does anybody know any good ways to improve flexibilty though? I only know that stretching helps but I don’t really even know which stretches to do!