 I'm doing 43 things |
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live every day in honour of God
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1 person |
| 2. |
become an amazing person to be with
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1 person |
| 3. |
learn tantric
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6 people |
| 4. |
learn burlesque
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32 people |
| 5. |
learn bellydance
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5 people |
| 6. |
learn how to massage
1 cheer |
93 people |
| 7. |
start a home business
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42 people |
| 8. |
buy a second home
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21 people |
| 9. |
move house
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141 people |
| 10. |
write a book
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26,018 people |
| 11. |
complete my masters
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37 people |
| 12. |
start thinking!
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2 people |
| 13. |
Trust in God's plans for me
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42 people |
| 14. |
Know the key achievement objective for the day and achieve it.
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4 people |
| 15. |
The body is a gift and a piece of art; present it that way by taking care of it and feeling beautiful.
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5 people |
| 16. |
understand life at a higher level
1 entry |
1 person |
| 17. |
learn counselling/supporting skills
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1 person |
| 18. |
become an activist/role model
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1 person |
| 19. |
become accomplished
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2 people |
| 20. |
become sophisticated
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3 people |
| 21. |
learn more about God
1 entry |
29 people |
| 22. |
be more joyful
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21 people |
| 23. |
start a dancing class
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1 person |
| 24. |
live my best self
1 entry |
1 person |
| 25. |
be more expressive
2 entries |
33 people |
| 26. |
learn to be bold and strong
2 entries |
1 person |
| 27. |
make my own clothes
1 cheer |
2,195 people |
| 28. |
learn to speak eloquently
2 entries |
1 person |
| 29. |
work on my emotional intelligence
4 entries |
2 people |
| 30. |
overcome procrastination
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241 people |
| 31. |
stop looking to others for reassurance of my decisions
1 entry |
90 people |
| 32. |
make more money pronto!
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1 person |
| 33. |
lose a stone
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356 people |
| 34. |
write thank you notes
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155 people |
| 35. |
learn/buy violin
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1 person |
| 36. |
buy a piano
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217 people |
| 37. |
re-learn the piano
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243 people |
| 38. |
learn more about artists
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2 people |
| 39. |
become organised
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46 people |
| 40. |
learn photography
1 cheer |
2,644 people |
| 41. |
learn how to be a better friend
1 cheer |
7 people |
| 42. |
learn spanish and italian
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35 people |
| 43. |
find my passion(s)
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16 people |
i feel like oatmeal 2night…why? Around me i was surrounded by people who freely spoke from their heart, i felt like a smiling empty shell that contributed nothing because im not really connected to that passion….i won’t allow myself to be
will never be learned until I actually believe I’m worthy of them?
I want to elevate so, so much but my strategy is flawed by the consuming belief that I am beyond help. For all the momentary drive I summon, it is challenged and defeated every time by the belief that I’m not worthy of success in any form, so I unconsciously sabotage myself to continue the belief cycle. I realise that I have created this situation I’m in, that a part of me is seeking this situation to continue. This just makes me feel worse. It doesn’t tackle the credibility of the belief that I’m not worthy of success/beyond help. I just can’t rationalise myself into believing it. There are things I want to do in life, but it feels like it’s slipping out of my grasp because i was never worthy enough in the first place. I don’t know how to move my head out of this…and nothing will change until I do.
Someone very wise asked me a while ago, if I was willing to sit with the pain. I have flitted into it, rationalised it wouldn’t change anything when it got too hard, and closed it off again to stumble on. I haven’t felt comfortable enough to open up to my christian friends because i know self-hatred is a sin, and I can’t bear their disapproval so I keep quiet.
why do I hate myself? It’s not the worldly success I seek, although comfort would be nice. It’s the feeling that I’m failing at being myself, not being successful in the things I feel passionate about, that make me who I am. Yes, I want success, but success in being myself. Since I have expended most of my energy placating others, I neither had the energy to be myself or define who that was/is.
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Jill Anderson wants to train a horse
start an internet business
Learn to rollerblade
Visit Scotland
make a zombie movie
make my parents parents proud
find an address for a phone number free of charge
go to school on time
Floss Every Day
Lose five pounds, and keep it off.
design a cool layout for my LiveJournal
do more volunteer work
thinkred wants to own a beach house
Get out of my rut.
Be less shy
Take the SAT
brandylien wants to Take up martial arts
open a restaurant
Speak another language
job
visit all 50 states
get rich
