Leeny, you sound like you have an awful lot on your plate. I have 2 children as well and smoked pot through both my pregnancies. I am now on day 1 of the rest of my life.
You do deserve better and your children deserve better. My oldest has never paid any attention to my smoking but my three year old is very facsinated by it. Wants to know if he can smoke when he gets older.
Many, many people care about you. I care about you and I don’t know you. Ask God for the strength you need. You cannot do it alone. We need to do our part to keep our children off drugs. There are soo many drugs these days and I want them to say no to all of them.
Take a deep breath, drink a tea, (try some green tea, very good for you), count your blessings and focus on everything that’s good in your life.
I am in the process of trying to lose about 75 lbs. and quit smoking grass. Wish me luck and I wish the best of luck to you.
Focus on the positive and eliminate the negative. Let’s do this together for us and our children. May God Bless you.