I feel like I’m getting farther and farther away from this goal. I don’t know what it happening in my life right now that’s making it so impossible. I can’t imagine it’s me and my personality, but what else can it be?
bellasarah83's Life List
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1. write a book
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2. pay off my student loans
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3. buy a house
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4. do something new every week
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5. move out
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6. be more patient
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7. be happy
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8. get out more
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9. learn to dance
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10. Worry less.
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11. Find a career I like
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12. Get a PhD
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13. Fall in love
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14. travel the world
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15. make more friends
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16. learn to salsa
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17. win the lottery
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How I did it: I started playing racquetball. Racquetball is the only sport I've ever played where I've looked forward to it every day. It gets me to the gym, and while I'm there, I might as well work out! Read how I did it…
I haven’t seen him in three years (until a few weeks ago). I still believe that I was utterly and completely in love with him, but now I also think that he may have been using me. An awful thing to do, when your thousands of miles away in Afghanistan for 3/4 of the relationship. He had someone to send him letters and someone to come home to on his leave. And when he didn’t need me anymore, he cut me out of his life. It hurt me so much and I’m still not over him.
Seeing him opened up all of those wounds, and made it hard again. I don’t think I’ll see him again, but I’m glad I did this time. If nothing else, it let me know that seeing him WON’T help.
