Benji

Life is super hectic!

I did it, achieved what I wanted to achieve. I am very very proud of myself. :)

Since I started my training as a RN I knew that I eventually wanted to do community (kind of the holy grail of nursing in the UK). I applied for a couple of jobs when I was pregnant with Maddie, didn’t get them (I wasn’t surprised) and then this one came up around Christmas.

I applied got shortlisted and got it! I was late for my interview because I went to the wrong building, but hey! I still got it.

I can honestly say it was one of the best things I have ever done, just me, no help.

Anyway , I have been in post for about 4 months now and I could not be happier, I love the autonmy of it, the knowing that the buck stops with me, that decisions I make have a massive effect on the lives of the people I work with, in a positive way of course! It’s knowing that I can make a difference, that I can choose my way of working, my own style, I can find a different way, theres always a way to make something work well and better and to help facilitate positive change.

I love that.

I love my job.

indeedy. We are.

Sean chose the design. It’s very lovely and we are all booked in with a VERY talented guy called Rob Collins on Wednesday (the actual day of our Anniversary).

I still can’t believe it’s been 3 years, it feels more like a life sentence… I’M KIDDING!

It’s been three very busy and interesting years, sometimes it’s been unbelievably hard and other times it has been so easy and wonderful. But then that’s marriage for you. And especially when you get married after only a month of meeting face to face! :)

No regrets though, I wouldn’t change anything at all. I am with my best friend, the other half of me, I cannot imagine ever being without him and I wouldn’t want to. We are fortunate to have found something in each other that fits completely. I think that’s very special.

Sean, I can honestly say I love you more now than I did 3 years ago, and right then I couldn’t have imagined how that could be possible. Thank you.

I can honestly say our life is not boring, we are, as one unit very tired. Mostly this is due to lack of sleep and Sean working long days, but he has a few days off now and we will get to spend some time together.

I have found that simple things like falling asleep on the couch together, waking up to find you didn’t know you were asleep and have dribbled all over your husbands crotch make me smile. That we sometimes don’t have to have big conversations, that I know what he’s thinking, that he still sometimes steals little glances at me..

These things all make me smile and make me feel so grateful for what we have. It also makes me realize that even when things don’t start out so great, that can be the reason they end up wonderful.

Sean once said to me that if our relationship was half as good as his parent’s we would be just fine, also that they had a really hard couple of years before they really found out what wanting to be with another person for the rest of your life really meant. He was telling me to hang in there.

I’m glad I did.