bethany

my eyes are really sensitive so my eye doctor said that i would probably have major problems with contacts. i can’t put drops in my eyes very easily cuz they are so sensitive. luckily, my eyesight is getting better now! so i don’t think i’ll even need contact lenses cuz i can see pretty well without my glasses!

i’ve thought about it a lot. now i realize that i really don’t need to be more outgoing. i have a small group of very good friends and i’m not afraid to talk to people anymore. i can consider almost everyone in my class a friend. my only problem is that i don’t speak up in groups usually and my friends are alawys teasing me about that, which isn’t mean or anything. it’s all in good fun! but i really don’t care anymore. i like myself how i am.

i don’t care anymore about being popular. all i want is one or two very close friends. so far i have one and possibly another one. i just wanna feel loved. i don’t care about having a whole bunch of people wanting to hang out with me. that would be too weird and overwhelming. i learned one important lesson in my freshman year of highschool. that is: it is impossible for you to make everyone like you. you can’t make them feel anything. so you have to just learn to live with it. i’m learning to live with it. i’m trying to just ignore the people who don’t like me and think i’m weird and i’m trying to just spend more time with the people who make me feel better about myself. i love them and they make me feel like somebody. i used to focus too much on trying to make people like me and as a result i was miserable. i’m a lot happier now that i’ve just accepted that they don’t like me and there is nothing that i can do about that.