bethschofield

I am searching for MY vision…MY purpose. I turned thirty today and I have no truly great acheivements. I am a wife and a mother of two precious little stinkers. I have so many visions, its like a movie is playing in my head starring myself. I have everything so together in these visions. My problem is that I am being pulled in so many different directions. My creative flow is so overwhelmingly all over the place. I see myself as being hugely successful at twenty different things, yet I can’t even successfully manage the household that I live in. I just need focus. I get a new idea which then becomes an obsession of thoughts and ideas of how I can ‘make it work’. It’s all very exhausting, especially when I obsess so much about my ‘new’ idea that I dream about it at night. Sometimes I have these amazingly brilliant dreams that I would swear God has sent me about very specific things,...then comes the obsessing and looking into cost of my new ‘project’. Werid crazy talk…I know. But I really do and I don’t know where to even begin.