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I’ve been with my boyfriend for just over 3 years and I still love him very much, but nothing’s the same as it used to be.

When we first got together we were both students. We both had lots of time for each other, and back then everything was new and frsh and exciting. then we spent 2 years apart. Now we’re finally back in the same country, but I’m working and he’s writing his thesis.

I ahve to be up between 5 and 6 am every morning. By the time I get home he’s at uni working on his thesis and by the time he comes home it’s late (around 8pm usually, sometimes even later) So we make something to eat, amybe watch some TV or something then I have to go to bed so I can be up at 5am again.

I’m always tired, he’s always busy and we never get to spend any quality time together. I love him but we can’t go on like this.
Something needs to change, but I don’t even know where to start.

I’m starting to seriously doubt that I’m ever going to complete this goal. I think there is something wrong with me that makes people not want to know me no matter what I do. I can try as hard as I want to be friendly but people hate me anyway.

For the third time in a row I’ve sent an email to my fellow language assistants here in Germany asking if they want to meet up, maybe do some travelling. These people, at the beginning of our time here, discussed with me all the places we all wanted to go and all the things we could do together. But since christmas I’ve barely seen most of them. Whenever i try to meet up with them they either have excuses why they can’t or they just completely fail to respond to my messages. this isn’t the first time this has happened to me, so I can only conclude that it’s me who is the problem. they all get on perfectly fine with each other, I’m the one nobody likes. Nobody wants to hang around with me. The people i thought were my friends now never contact me. Obviously I’m doing something wrong, so how cn I completely change my personality and make people like me? :(

‘ve always enjoyed writing, but I’m not sure I’m any good at it.

Well… I started an Open University Short Course in February 2007 called ‘Start Writing Ficiton.’ So far it’s going well. it’s difficult, but I’m really enjoying it and I’ve been getting a few nice comments on my work. not aure I’ve found my talent just yet, but I’m getting closer. maybe I’ll believe I have talent the day I manage to get something published. LOL