I'm doing 12 things
I’ve realized that I have to pace myself. So, I am steping back and going for 20 instead of 50. Losing 50 pounds is definitely on my list of to-do’s, but I have to take baby steps.
twenty it is.
- becky
bexc's Life List
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1. be beautiful mentally, physically and spiritually
28 people -
2. lose weight
40,803 people -
3. Meet goal on Weight Watchers
78 people -
4. dance more
1 cheer1,131 people -
5. run a 10K
1 cheer1,131 people -
6. learn french
12,436 people -
7. Read the Bible
1 cheer3,707 people -
8. own a dance studio
27 people -
9. understand love
43 people -
10. join a swim team
14 people -
11. play my guitar more
230 people -
12. sing jazz
37 people
Recent entries
yesterday, i cut. I went a whole month without cutting, maybe two? And i just succumbed to my device.
it was right before church too.. it was little, but enough. It’s so unbelievable that only four little lines can bring so much relief.
I sat with a group of people after the service, and i found that i was surrounded, but felt so utterly alone. i ended up being in the middle of the huddle… and i felt so naked.
my watch was the only thing covering my fresh scars, and deeply, i just wanted one person to see. you’re thinking selfish and attention seeking? you can say that. All i wanted was a hug. you know, not just arms over arms, but soul and spirit touching.
i miss that.
i wish i wasn’t so broken.
the words ‘stop cutting’ seem impossible.
i don’t think that is going to happen any time soon. how can i give up something that i feel so comfortable with?
ahh! my heart is racing!
