bianca_loves

I’ve always wanted to go into a profession that would allow me the opportunity to help change the lives of women in trouble. At an early age I learned that a woman’s life can be filled with so many trials and tribulations, a lot of the time that trouble centered around the men in their lives. I dreamed of being a lawyer at some point in high school, I even started working towards that by joining the mock trails. I was really good too. LOL
Anyway after I went through my bad times including drop out of school for a couple months, my dream of going into law kinda faded. This wasn’t due to me not wanting to be a lawyer anymore, I don’t know… it just sort of faded into the back ground of my mind only to resurface about 4/5 years later.
I have been attending college for the past 2 years working towards my Associates degree in Liberal Arts with a concentration in Women’s Studies. I graduate in a few months and I have to make the decision of what school I’m going to transfer to and what major I want to pick. I’m seriously starting to think I’m going to go back to my original career goal, dealing with the judicial system.
I don’t need to be a multi-million dollar lawyer that’ll end up selling my soul to the devil. My goal is to live comfortably (at least 6 figures a year) while making a difference. I’m not someone who believes in order to live a worthwhile life helping others you have to be a poor martyr. I know that it is possible to have both and so I’m going to start working towards that now.
The more I write or think about the idea, the more I believe I’m making the right decision. I’m not going to rush out and tell anyone my decision; I think I’m going to keep this to myself for a while. My mother and family will be overjoyed that I chose to have a stable career. my grandfather already has a doctor in the family (my aunt and his daughter), I think I would make him beyond happy that if I choose this path, maybe so much that he’ll help financially-wise with my law school tuition. =D
Time to get back to hitting them books.

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I just need people around me that won’t bring me down or put out negative energy, especially when I’m already feeling low or doubting myself. I’m beginning to realize that there are no real 100% friends, because human beings are selfish. We are naturally self inclined and have been since the beginning of time. We really can’t expect everyone else to focus on us and our problems all the time, they have their own to deal and so must be selfish and we shouldn’t get angry over that. Not every time we break down and cry is someone going to be there to rub our backs or give their shoulders in support, sometimes we just need to support our damn selves. I want to learn to rely on myself more and be happy with that, to know that I don’t need anyone else’s approval beside my own. I need to stop giving others the means to hurt me and cause me pain. If that means rebuilding my walls even stronger than before then so be it. Maybe I need to reside within those confines until I can live beyond them.