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skimming over to find details to write a brief Latin essay about

I want to be doing something that is very active and alive. But I think authentically I enjoy peaceful things; noticing the small things about them becomes fascenating. I guess I like observing and discovering.
One thing I’ve found out is that I don’t like pressures from other things to become or behave certain ways. It doesn’t seem natural. That is why I think I will end up living a relatively solitary life. I think I’ll end up living around people who understand what I mean by that, at least to the slight level that I do.
Anyway, back to ‘reality’, I love stories and would feel really fulfilled if I wrote one that expressed something very clearly and effectively; but I get frustrated with them sometimes. They just seem pointless after a while when I begin to feel my body swell from sitting still so long and living outside of itself. Maybe if I could write a story that interacted with my surroundings…we’ll call it life(haha).
Telling stories is fun, that on the spot challenge like speaking a language or learning a dance or solving a trig proof.
That’s probably what I’ll end up doing- solving math and science problems. Though, they aren’t bad. The ones I’m particularly drawn to are the ones they haven’t found methods to find solutions to yet, like curing sicknesses, or understanding fundamental particles, or time travel(haha).
I love to explore too, and will have to some time in my life travel and meet and live like natives in some country. I think it will feel awkward for me at first, but then when I let down what I’ve built up around me as myself and my accomplishments and all these things I use to define who I am, I will really be able to understand who they are, appreciate them, and discover who I am or not.

This is my third day of listening to my French tape and I’m still very excited, so I think I’ll be able to keep it up. I haven’t started my chinese tape yet, but I am considering purchasing rosetta stone for that. I think that that would be a more effective way to study chineese, because the way my book presents it now makes you learn all of the sounds from phonetic english spellings and then makes you piece together the words. That doesn’t seem effetive. Reflecting on it like this affirms my positive decision, though it is a big investment. My horoscope predicted a large purchase(haha). Though I really wanted to buy a piano for my mother, I think I will be able to earn back enough money before her birthday.