blackbenegesserit

Will cycle 6 simultaneously, adding one each next month until completion.

Using my greater knowledge for growth
my son’s happiness
cucumbers
St John’s Wort
exercise
doing something that makes me afraid anyway
hugging someone I care about
building my physical, emotional, and mental strength
being with my husband
manifesting great and pure love
dancing all night to live music
incense
the contentment of my pets
a really good book
a really good, inspiring, revelatory movie that is beautiful too
fresh flowers
clean water
seeing my feet pedicured
watching my son read a book that I have also enjoyed
teaching a child
learning
writing something great
seeing my teeth whitening
that my hair is done
wearing something beautiful
sun on my skin
a good night’s rest
loving kisses and touches
libraries
comic books
wearing beautiful jewelry
knowing all clothes in my house are clean
having my house clean and organize
talking to children about things
sunrises/sunsets
being to a new place
looking at my BMW
driving my bmw
walking on a greenway
sitting, talking with my aunts
talking to older people
singing to myself full volume
watching talented kids compete artistically in reality tv (not American Idol)
eating a brownie
even looking at a sundae
achieving even a little goal
homeschooling my son
enrolling my son in something cool for him
trees
being within a circle of trees—especially by water
walking barefoot outside
looking at art I’ve never seen before

I should have the money in a few weeks and then the show will be on the road!

I’m not even sure if I want two more…

It’s weird. I do when the mood strikes me—but not for this.

I haven’t worn the stuff in YEARS! Even before panty hose stopped being cool.

The old ones work right. Unless it’s an actual crock pot by that company, modern crock pots cook the food on a higher than low temperature to insure there is no risk of bacteria. Come on. Plus, I’m determined to save money. I’m going to check out some places when I can.

I do not count that. We were lost for so long that we missed the wedding and only showed up in time to take pics as if we’d been there the whole time. (eye roll)

I have 4 classic Native American books in my library and sacred texts has a lot of good stuff online. Then, there are other online sources and the local library and the local Metrolina Native American Association.

Alice in Wonderland (the original version)/ Alchemist/All the King’s Men
Back Roads by Tawni O’Dell/Breath, Eyes, Memory by Edwidge Danticat/Bambi
Cold Mountain/ A Child Called It/Cujo
The Dead Zone/ Dune/DEath Be Not Proud by John Gunther
Everyman (a play, does that count?)
Fahrenheit 451/
THe Good Earth
Hellen Keller/Huckleberry Finn/The Hundred Secret Senses
It/ Invisible Man/Into Thin Air
Jacob’s Ladder/The Jungle Book/Jude the Obscure/Jackie O
Kennedy Men
Lace I and II,Love Signs by Linda Goodman’s/Like Water for Chocolate
A Man in Full/The Myth of Mathematical Ability
Nowhere Else on Earth by Josephine Humphreys/No-one Gets Out of Here Alive
Othello/The Old Man and the Sea/On Writing by Stephen King
The Poisonwood Bible/PRincess/Pimp/The Princess Bride
Queenie, Quran
Running and Being
The Story of O/ Sailor on Horseback/Seabiscuit /A Swiftly Tilting Planet/THe Swiss Family Robinson
Tarzan, Tess of the D’Ubervilles/ Think and Grow Rich
Under the Banner of Heaven/Up From Slavery
Vermillion/Vampire Diaries/THe Very Hungry CAterpillar
Weaveworld by Clive Barker/ White Oleander/Why Does He Do That by Lundy Bancroft/ A Wrinkle In Time/Winning by Jack Welch
The Autobiography of Malcolm X/Xanadu
You, the Owner’s Manual/
Zen and Western Thought by Masao Abe/ Zen and the Art of Drawing

Today’s goal in this is to forward roll and to cartwheel. I need to get all the cobwebs out.

I am making headway with Ian. I have taught him how to memorize his skip counting and next week we will work on memorizing his multiplication tables. Today we will finish off defining fractions and will start making pictures of them. I’ve also exposed him to a few algebra rules.

This may help…
St John’s Wort is something I use, but if you take high blood pressure medicine, it isn’t recommended. I am not a doctor, but I found out about this herb in YOU the owner’s manual written by Dr Oz and another doc. It really works. You feel like you’re having a good day, even if you aren’t, and it costs $5 or so at Walmart.
Another thing is, metu neter 4 is pretty good. It helps you rewrite your mental scripts so that you don’t react to the same stimuli in the same way. However, the metaphysical stuff in the beginning isn’t crucial to the process

That makes this a very hard thing to do.

why this is so hard for me.

Watch t.v while you work out. That would make it productive. I do a workout dvd that I’m familiar with on one screen while watching a netflix movie or show on another. I also watch “tv” while I read over notes for class. This way, I don’t feel a need to take breaks, the emotional responses I have strengthen my memory of the subject, and I don’t feel fatigued after hours of memorizing and testing myself in a subject. If you like it so much, make sure it suits your purpose. That way you don’t feel guilty. I find that if I don’t entertain myself, I feel cheated-especially if I’m doing something tedious and dry-like the same old workout video and the same old notes.

Okay. I’ve always wanted to be the absolute best I can be. Right. I’ve said it. I also want to do it without feeling guilty or like I might be hurting anyone else’s progress. Who the hell am I to think that I can negatively affect anyone’s journey by growing and mastering? If the awesomeness of God or Buddha or Mohammed or Gandhi or Martin Luther King, Jr isn’t crushing the hope out of anyone, then my fear of alienating people or hurting people is unfounded and childish.

He’s not dead. He passed through that “doorway” without actually losing his life. He’s not dead. Don’t cry anymore.

Boyfriend is handling the installation.

Its hours are too different from the other schedules, so it leaves a big gap when I could be doing other things, but I could use this for research on a book I have been working on.