why do u torment me so? do u get happiness from making me cry? i cant stand the way u make me feel. i dont want these feelings anymore. i just want to be happy. in my dreams i see u, when im awake i see u. my friends, my family they see u. why cant u just dissapear? why cant u leave me alone? i want of u no more, of u i can take no more. my wishes of u r no more. goodbye now i shall think of u no more.
blackdeviljenny's Life List
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1. be a better daughter for my father
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2. write more poetry
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3. get physicly, mental, and emotionaly fit
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4. lose 20 pounds
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5. finish high school
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6. get a tattoo in rememberince of amanda
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7. finish mt tattoo
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8. unite with my boyfriend
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9. learn to manage my anger
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10. get my lience
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11. write in my journal every day
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12. get better grades in school
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13. finnish my paper work earily to have earily release
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14. i want to become a better girlfriend to my boyfriend.
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15. learn to appreciate life more
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16. forgive, but never forget
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to this day i wait in shame. i ach thinking that it can be fixed. i shiver at the cold depriving stears which are pointed in my direction. when will i be told goodbye so that i may let you go? i miss the feel of your face. i cringe and crumble at the sight of you and her. i await the day when you come back into my life….
i give my life to you. i pledge my alegence to you. i was clamed but i am not ashamed. i fight for our name. i fight for the honor. i am but a simple being wraped in a complicated and confusing world. i am an emotionless zombie at your every comand. i serve you till the day that i die. i serve you in the after life. salvatrucha never dies, our army never dies. we live on forever. i am a trucha till the end of time. dont fuck with me or ill fuck with your mind, goodbye chavas till the next time….....

