I'm doing 33 things
I am doing my best. I am trying not to answer his mails. I have failed this week, cause I have answered two of them. Now I simply don’t read them. It’s easier. I know he’s ok, he’s going out a lot with his friends. He’s the kind of guy that doesn’t really thing too much about things.
I am on my way to be free and happy.
blacklilith's Life List
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1. learn to be happy with myself, by myself, for myself
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2. move on
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3. have a daily routine of meditation, sports, drawing, reading and writing
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4. Allow myself to only be treated well by the people I choose to have friendships and relationships with. If they do not, I need to find the courage to move on without them.
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5. finish writing my book
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6. stop freaking out about things I can't control
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7. be assertive with what I want and not be afraid to say it
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8. focus on what really matters
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9. practice yoga regularly
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10. live right here, right now, like THIS IS IT
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11. do all the crazy fun stuff I've dreamed of doing for ages
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12. stop waiting
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13. express my feelings and opinions freely
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14. be more grateful
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15. stand up against oppression, racism, homophobia or any kind of discrimination
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16. Improve my posture
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17. fly in a hot air balloon
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18. I want to fall so deeply in love that neither of us could ever fall out of it
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19. start a foundation
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20. learn how to dance: cha-cha, tango, salsa, mambo, hip-hop ...
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21. have my greenhouse for growing flowers, vegetables and fruits
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22. visit Vienna, Amsterdam and Berlin
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23. Make a list of all the films I've watched recently and keep it growing
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24. be more social
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25. read, read, and read some more
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26. stop smoking
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27. create a team of 43 crazy cat lovers
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28. every week do something I am afraid of
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29. make 2007 my best year yet
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30. go to an opera
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31. buy a wok and cook more healthy meals
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32. find new friends
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33. not be depressed or sad for celebrating my 33rd birthday
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Recent entries
I have to change my life and I know that it’s only up to me to do it. I teach in a rural area. I had to rent a house nearby. There’s nothing there. A small café mainly for old people and a tiny grocer’s. I am used to the city life. So sometimes i feel I am going to be mad with all that. My happiness depends on me. So I am going to change my life: this week I am going to join in a local gym (10 or 15 km from where I live).
Stop thinking about him. Stop thinking I was the guilty one. Stop being abused by his words and his attitudes. I prefer being alone than having such a bad relationship. Yes, there was the “click”, but guess what? maybe that’s not the most important. What really maters is communication, respect, empathy, dialogue and friendship. I had none of these.
