third day fell off the wagon…. I’ve done this 4 times now. It’s feels like everybody is trying to annoy me to no end. So I feel like I can’t take the stress anymore and go back to smoking. It’s a lame excuse I know that! Yet my willpower is lost in my thoughts. I need to relearn how to held the stress people cause me without smoking a cigarette. I lie to myself about how the cigarette will make the situations better. So today is day one again. I already feel annoyed as my ex called me in the middle of night to attack my self worth. But life isn’t always rainbows and butterflies.
Mar 30, 2008, 11:10AM PDT | 0 comments
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20 months ago
I know that this isn’t the best goal to have but still. A long ago guy that at one time I had a crush on called me up with the news that he had a baby (mind you I don’t want to have kids till i’m older being 21 is way too young) but anyways he envys me cause I’m kid free and the fact that I can just get up and leave any place or person as I please without having to answer to anybody. Recently I moved out of that boring state to Las Vegas and having a great time here. It feels good to be envied.
Mar 24, 2008, 09:12PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
Well I had a million and one errands to run today…. so that kept me busy. Still craving a smoke. But haven’t done it yet. But it’s almost bedtime so then it’s on to day 3. Got work tomorrow and my pink eye is still noticeable…. Not good. I’m a little moody now too. All in all though when I quit for just one month I’ll be happy to have beat this beast.
Mar 24, 2008, 09:05PM PDT | 1 comment
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