I'm doing 35 things
third day fell off the wagon…. I’ve done this 4 times now. It’s feels like everybody is trying to annoy me to no end. So I feel like I can’t take the stress anymore and go back to smoking. It’s a lame excuse I know that! Yet my willpower is lost in my thoughts. I need to relearn how to held the stress people cause me without smoking a cigarette. I lie to myself about how the cigarette will make the situations better. So today is day one again. I already feel annoyed as my ex called me in the middle of night to attack my self worth. But life isn’t always rainbows and butterflies.
blindhatred20's Life List
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1. Quit Smoking
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2. get in shape
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3. Learn to cook
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4. Learn Spanish
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5. run 3 miles in under 30 minutes
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6. expand my circle of friends
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7. To live instead of exist
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8. learn how to drive stick-shift
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9. Move out of my parents house into a place of my own
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10. travel the world
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11. try sushi
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12. be independent
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13. find my soulmate
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14. write and publish a novel
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15. accomplish my goals
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16. wear my contact lenses less
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17. be envied
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18. go to japan
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19. get over my ex
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20. Change my identity
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21. be happy being single
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22. forgive and forget
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23. Stay single for a year
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24. Learn to rock climb
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25. learn to dance
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26. find happiness
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27. go back to college
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28. to be proposed to without pressure
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29. Own a 98 toyota supra twin tubro
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30. Take more pictures
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31. Stop picking my lips
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32. stop procrastinating
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33. learn martial arts
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34. redecorate my room
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35. be more productive
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Recent entries
I know that this isn’t the best goal to have but still. A long ago guy that at one time I had a crush on called me up with the news that he had a baby (mind you I don’t want to have kids till i’m older being 21 is way too young) but anyways he envys me cause I’m kid free and the fact that I can just get up and leave any place or person as I please without having to answer to anybody. Recently I moved out of that boring state to Las Vegas and having a great time here. It feels good to be envied.
Well I had a million and one errands to run today…. so that kept me busy. Still craving a smoke. But haven’t done it yet. But it’s almost bedtime so then it’s on to day 3. Got work tomorrow and my pink eye is still noticeable…. Not good. I’m a little moody now too. All in all though when I quit for just one month I’ll be happy to have beat this beast.
