well…im ur tipical teenage girl who does the normal stuff….im SICK of the normal stuff…i wanna be the girl tht ppl walk and point at and say yea thts her…ive never been the kind of person to just go out and do somethign random bc i hate being rejected or let down.
just bc he tells u he loves doesnt mean he does and we all know tht…and even tho i trust wat he says and to be honest he could tell me the world is flat and i would say…really?...pitiful…i know…and he does look at me i ntht way tht u should just know…but is there ne way to know for sure?
i have been friends with my boyfriend since i was in the 7th grade and we started going out almost 3 months ago…most ppl say tht dating ur best friend isnt good but when u fall in love like i did its so worth it…i had liked him all school year and i knew tht he liked me 2…but i didnt say ne thing then 2nd semester he sat with me and my friends at lunch so i liked him even more…we flirted forever but no one said ne thing but now i wish i had bc he came into lunch 1 day and told us tht he got laid a couple days ago…and being friends u get kinda indepth 2…this broke my heart so much…and i felt like i could have prevented it…like it my fault…but then we started goin out and tht is when i realized tht he meant the world to me…but i also realized tht as i was waiting to have sex i would be recieving less than him…it heart me tht he could have my whole heart…and really he already did…but i couldnt have his at leats not entirely…i slowly started to accept the fact tht i couldnt do ne thing bout this…then one nite he lied to me bout her and i have never honestly hated ne one until her…my heart had broken and i couldnt fix it…she really was a crack whore…or so i thot and til i found out tonite tht not only was she his first but he was her first…and this made me feel like he was goin around takin ppls virginity tho i new this was not the case…but…their break up was quite sticky…they were separated 4 2 weeks and while they were having sex she told him tht she had screwed 8 different guys in the last 2 weeks tht was when he decided she needed to go…and i no he loves me…i can c it in his eyes…and maybe this seems shallow but i no tht virginity is the greatest gift u have but 4 the rest of my life im never goin to get tht gift but he will have…twice…i cant descride the pain i go thro every day…i just want to let go of it…but i just cant…help…please?
as ptiful as it sound it is hard 4 me to find 1 thing tht im not afraid of…i never felt pitiful about it until ppl started pushing me into doin the things im afraid of like elevators and rollercoasters and bugs and water and flying and they always give me crap 4 it and im sick of not being able to go along with everyone else
i do love my mom dont get me wrong she did bring me into this world…i just dont wanna be nething like her…even tho i am still young and prolly havent had nearly as many experiences as her…sometimes i think tht i am sumtimes more mature than her and sumtimes tht i really do no better….
ive been in colorguard 4 about 4 or 5 years and tht is how i learned how to do the splits i used to be a cheerleader and i could never do them and even tho it is just the splits when ppl watch u do them they always stare in awe…it makes u feel like u can do sumthing other ppl cant…i really suggest doin this
