they cancelled the damn tour!
bloodythumbs's Life List
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1. forget about all the past bullshit
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2. Get drunk more often
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3. write thank you notes
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4. be someone's muse
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5. drink absinthe
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6. write at least 3 novels
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7. find a job that I love
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8. never settle
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9. learn to speak another language fluently
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10. age gracefully
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11. visit finland
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12. figure out what i want to do with my life
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13. have sex without feeling guilty afterwards
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14. seduce my local crush
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15. become a massage therapist
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16. go into business with my best friend
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17. be an aerialist
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18. Get my LPN
19 people -
19. design my own tattoo
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20. trade in my phone for a Nokia 6102i
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21. See all of the films listed on the American Film Institute's Top 100 American Films of the 20th Century
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22. design t-shirts
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23. be more confident
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24. be a better christian
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25. fly to arizona
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26. meet ville valo
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27. join the Ymca
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28. get a puppy
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29. seduce my international crush
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30. lose 50 pounds
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31. have my own business
474 people -
32. move out of my parents house
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33. stop having panic attacks
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34. Go to church on a regular basis
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35. stop biting my nails
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36. go on a roadtrip with friends
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37. learn to blow glass
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38. follow my favorite band on tour
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39. get a tattoo
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40. Move out of this town
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41. meet peter murphy
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42. finish my degree
2,537 people
Seven years of friendship, 3 years of dating, and an engagement to who I thought was my soulmate. We broke up a little over a year ago and I’ve spent the past 365 days eating my feelings(hello weight loss goal), sleeping a lot, and avoiding the real world.
The turning point became possible thanks to a network of caring friends(they were my strength when I couldn’t muster up my own), the book “He’s just not that into you”(seriously folks!), time, and a phone call where he spoke to me so badly that a little light bulb went off.
I don’t NEED him!!!
Here there was a time when I couldn’t imagine spending my life without him. A time when I couldn’t imagine having children with anyone else. A time when I couldn’t imagine getting very old and wrinkled with anyone but him.
Now I’m saying “phew! crisis averted!”
Who would want to spend a lifetime with someone who didn’t think that YOU are all that?? certainly not me.
Good luck to everyone with this goal. Take it a day at a time(and if that seems too much, 15 minutes at a time). Surround yourself with positive people who encourage and support you, and whatever you do… don’t lay in bed and eat your feelings. One morning you’ll wake up over him, but your favorite jeans won’t fit. I’d much rather have my favorite jeans.
thankless job. overworked. underpaid. all the while being apart of a failing system that badly needs to be reformed. best of luck to those who continue in this field and can handle the demands. you are saints!

