It’s on my list but I also feel like I like to be in a bad mood sometimes… I like to think it makes the good days better.
I think I’m going to work on this for the next week. I’ll wake up tomorrow with an outstanding attitude.
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like myself and act like it
4 entries . 68 cheers |
1 person |
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stop trying to figure everything out and accept my flaws
32 cheers |
1 person |
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ask the questions i want answers to
6 entries . 41 cheers |
2 people |
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be present
2 entries . 17 cheers |
119 people |
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actively work at making new friends
5 entries . 30 cheers |
3 people |
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Recognize myself – as capable of happiness independent of others
2 entries . 66 cheers |
1 person |
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have excellent posture
2 entries . 24 cheers |
9 people |
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settle down
7 entries . 7 cheers |
88 people |
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go to at least one new bus stop a week
5 entries . 14 cheers |
1 person |
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choose to have good days
2 entries . 15 cheers |
1 person |
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write in my journal more often
1 entry . 13 cheers |
549 people |
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go to every park in my beautiful city
1 entry . 15 cheers |
1 person |
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draw pictures
1 entry . 6 cheers |
8 people |
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volunteer
15 cheers |
4,870 people |
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find people to do things with
1 entry . 2 cheers |
1 person |
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come up with some REALISTIC plans
1 entry . 4 cheers |
1 person |
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eat good food (at home)
1 entry . 4 cheers |
1 person |
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smiles make people smile :)
2 cheers |
1 person |
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apply to the peace corp
1 entry . 1 cheer |
1 person |
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It’s on my list but I also feel like I like to be in a bad mood sometimes… I like to think it makes the good days better.
I think I’m going to work on this for the next week. I’ll wake up tomorrow with an outstanding attitude.
I was talking to my friend on the phone who lives across the country and I had previously discussed going to visit him this summer. He said to me “you’re not coming to Philly anymore are you..” like he knew I couldn’t actually commit to taking this trip, when in reality it’s the most committed I’ve been to a trip idea in quite a while. BUT, nonetheless I had changed my mind about the trip. I thought my money could be better used providing living expenses. (ugh)
But anyway, he always tells me I change my mind too much, and its true. I have so many plans and a new one always replaces an older one and what I realized after all of this babbling is that I never actually do any of it because I’m constantly changing my mind about what I really want to be doing. By the time it comes around to actually doing anything I’ve thought of this new completely amazing thing to do which now requires all of my resources, and unfortunately another month and a half of planning just so I have time to change my mind again.
Soo.. On the one hand its good – I want to do so many things and I like that. I get excited about them and I learn about new places and activities and I enjoy that. But.. on the other hand – what the fuck am I doing?
I’m graduating in one year.
I don’t know what else I’d do.
But I do change my mind a lot.