bluerose_sj

i look at you and i love you id do anything for you but yet u still continue to treat me like shit i dont want to hate you yet your hurting me so bad you callme names you say im fat im ugly im useless you make me feel worthless you cheat you lie you give me stds you hurt me physically and emotionally okay so we argue and i get really angry i turn into something nasty but thats because im hurting so bad inside i dont want to love you anymore…but i do and i have the feeling i will do forever.

im so sick of just exsisting i want something to exsist for i have a daughter whom i love but still im unfurfilled each day looking for something more i want to smile because im happy not because i have too.im angry because i dont know what im searching for i dont bloody know what i need what im yearning for and yet its all i think about makes no sense i know.

my boss thinks his really superiour to me he talks tome like shit and singles me out,i really dont like him he talks tome like a kid little does he realise im a mother i have my own child so therefor he cant treat me like thisim a women not a childthe day i leave ill gladly tellhim to go fuck himself and his godamn shitty biusness!!!!!!!!!!!!