im feeling alot better. ive been out of wack for the past week or two. but im back on track and ive lost 1 pound! today is mothers day, so im going to take my mom out to eat, but i’ll behave. i dont really binge i just eat bits of food that i shouldnt be eating. like if i havent eaten all day and im out with my friends. i’ll go out and get ice cream. or wings. im still on my wings kick. im lovin them. i guess my body is craving protien. im happy i havent been craving beef. beef is 10 times worse then chicken. i dont remember the last time i had a burger. well, heres my stats
gw: 125 i want to reach my goal by june 27th, my birthday. to do this i need to loose, 0.5 lbs a day or 3.5 lbs a week. i need to loose 19 more pounds, so im already a little ahead.
good luck girls and think thin thin thin.
there are a bit of calories. but they give you cool ideas and you can tweak them for your situation.
hey girls!!!! IM BACK! im so ready to get to this goal again. well maybe not the anorexic part, but the loosing this fat goal. i was so messed up over a guy. it was bad. i was so in love with him. he has alot of prblems, but i really saw myself waking up to see him everymorning laying next to me. he had a long 4 year tough relationship and he finally explained to me last night that he doesnt have that feeling. the feeling where you have so much love that you just want to share it with someone, the feeling that you want someone to love you as much as you love them. (thats when my eyes got watery) but i knew what he was talking about and i knew that i wasnt the girl that was going to snap him out of this. downfalls with him were : he smokes cigs, he doesnt like going out, he hates the movies (he’s 6’4” and the seats are not comfy for him. he likes porn. to me porn is disgusting. and not that i wasnt sexual with him, i knew every spot on him to drive him crazy, he just likes porn. uhhh, i love going to concerts and he said that he would never go to another one. he hates crowds of people. he needs zoloft or somthing. he really needs to see a doctor. im 18 and he’s 22. we’ll both be 19 and 23 next month. its so hard letting go because i cant picture living my whole life with out kissing his lips or not touching his very large caloused hands (which i love)
sorry im venting. but the point is, is that im so ready to come back and really put everything i have into it. since i cant have him, i’ll have thinness.
god its so hard knowing that i cant look into his gorgeous eyes and know that i cant attack him. that sexual bond was just so amazing between us. god damnit. i hate this
well, i guess i can just start with my stats